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threeplusfire) wrote2001-05-18 03:25 pm
threeplusfire) wrote2001-05-18 03:25 pm
soap and academia
Been listening to one Counting Crows song over and over lately, for no discernable reason. I can still hear it in my head. Seems like I am so much more sensitive to sound today.
Drove Karen to the airport this morning, and wished so much that it was already next week. I am not overly fond of actually flying, as I don't believe in physics and all that science mubo-jumbo. But I do like big modern airports and the expectant feeling they have. I like to travel, and I love the speed but God do I hate taking off.
Talked with Hana today about my excitement. It's strange how I look at her sometimes and see someone my own age but inifinitely wiser. She just doesn't look like she's twenty years older than me at all. Cate has something similar as well. I think it is something in the way they speak, a youthful grace to their voices. I want to grow up like that.
I was telling Hana about my soap collection, and how I couldn't decide what to take with me. She smiled and told me about this wonderful place where she buys soap every year, all about the kiwi soap, the strawberry soap, the lemon soap in big blocks like cheese, and these little chamomile soaps. She promised to take me first thing that week, so we could buy beautiful soaps. Oh, what a wonderful thing. In nine days I will be buying soap in Prague. Just another reason why I like Hana so much.
I'm tempted to stay and do my PhD here, for a couple of reasons. There is of course the cost, and the simplicity of the idea. But more importantly, Texas has quite a Czech community. We have unique opportunities for research, for scholarships and such things. I'm often told that Russian is what I should get the degree in, but perhaps if I do it here I can work the Czech in as well. The Slavic department is much like other such departments around the world, yet I know these people. I feel something inspiring here. Maybe I'll travel a lot, spend a semester or two at Princeton, at Charles, in Moscow or Budapest. There is time for so much, and so many chances. If an incredible offer came from another place, I might go. But I like this place, even if the city is not everything I want in the world. Austin has been my home for fourteen years now, and I think a part of me will always want to come back here.
It's astounding to think that I will live somewhere else for six weeks. Maybe I'll fall in love with Prague and never come back. Maybe I'll come back and run away again. There is so much ahead of me, I can't fit it all into my skull. Which means I should go back to working on my personal essay and try to get that done.
Drove Karen to the airport this morning, and wished so much that it was already next week. I am not overly fond of actually flying, as I don't believe in physics and all that science mubo-jumbo. But I do like big modern airports and the expectant feeling they have. I like to travel, and I love the speed but God do I hate taking off.
Talked with Hana today about my excitement. It's strange how I look at her sometimes and see someone my own age but inifinitely wiser. She just doesn't look like she's twenty years older than me at all. Cate has something similar as well. I think it is something in the way they speak, a youthful grace to their voices. I want to grow up like that.
I was telling Hana about my soap collection, and how I couldn't decide what to take with me. She smiled and told me about this wonderful place where she buys soap every year, all about the kiwi soap, the strawberry soap, the lemon soap in big blocks like cheese, and these little chamomile soaps. She promised to take me first thing that week, so we could buy beautiful soaps. Oh, what a wonderful thing. In nine days I will be buying soap in Prague. Just another reason why I like Hana so much.
I'm tempted to stay and do my PhD here, for a couple of reasons. There is of course the cost, and the simplicity of the idea. But more importantly, Texas has quite a Czech community. We have unique opportunities for research, for scholarships and such things. I'm often told that Russian is what I should get the degree in, but perhaps if I do it here I can work the Czech in as well. The Slavic department is much like other such departments around the world, yet I know these people. I feel something inspiring here. Maybe I'll travel a lot, spend a semester or two at Princeton, at Charles, in Moscow or Budapest. There is time for so much, and so many chances. If an incredible offer came from another place, I might go. But I like this place, even if the city is not everything I want in the world. Austin has been my home for fourteen years now, and I think a part of me will always want to come back here.
It's astounding to think that I will live somewhere else for six weeks. Maybe I'll fall in love with Prague and never come back. Maybe I'll come back and run away again. There is so much ahead of me, I can't fit it all into my skull. Which means I should go back to working on my personal essay and try to get that done.