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Aug. 12th, 2001 03:07 pmIt's been a weird day.
Felt sick and strange when I woke up. These horrible nightmares about being hunted, the phones tapped, the computer monitored, people coming to arrest me and frantically trying to pack a few clothes and things into my packpack so I could get away. The helicopter outside, lights shining, automatic gunfire, men in riot gear running through the place smashing things, my apartment destroyed. All this cinematic destruction and running.
An email this morning that crushed me, and I don't even know what I've done. Half angry and half sad, unable to understand this moment. Shocking how much this hurts.
Felt sick and strange when I woke up. These horrible nightmares about being hunted, the phones tapped, the computer monitored, people coming to arrest me and frantically trying to pack a few clothes and things into my packpack so I could get away. The helicopter outside, lights shining, automatic gunfire, men in riot gear running through the place smashing things, my apartment destroyed. All this cinematic destruction and running.
An email this morning that crushed me, and I don't even know what I've done. Half angry and half sad, unable to understand this moment. Shocking how much this hurts.