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Fog outside, and a world melting in the rain. There was a man hitchhiking on the side of 183 by the exit.

Work was exhausting, as I spent half my shift just doing certifications. This is it from now on. I lost track of how many I did tonight. I am much more tired now. But so it goes, and hopefully it will go well.

Tired, sad, just out of thoughts and out of mind.

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Today is better.

Though I'm wondering where Gene is because he didn't come home last night, and it's wet outside. The sky is featureless grey, and I don't like that. Give me grey and black and white, and wind moving the clouds, and that feeling of an end.

I'm thinking of Sam's speech at the end of The Two Towers, about how can the world go back to the way it was when so much bad had happened, but the dawn will come and the new day will shine out all the clearer for it because we hang on to the good things in this world.

My mom brought me a cookie covered in red sugar. I think I'll stop tonight on the way home and get carnations for her, because it is hard to be divorced and find things missing. My father and I are going out to lunch tomorrow. I don't think I have any Valentine's day angst really, not now. It was harder in school, because it was one of the things that proved the difference.

It hurts less today, and I keep counting.