don't let go

dream

We entered the house, small and provincial, exactly like all these other houses. I can't tell them apart here, and the sameness makes me vaguely uneasy. They are all the same anyway, in the end.

The woman is louder than the man, she screams and threatens in a way that would make me laugh if I were not too busy kissing the back of your neck. They have cats, running back and forth from the kitchen to the front hall, and the water in the sink keeps running forgotten until it is spilling over onto the floor, soaking into the rug and the wood and I keep thinking about floods, how much water would it take to wash the entire countryside clean.

They scream in the background, and I run my fingers over the cheap knick knacks on the shelves, little wooden ducks and things like that. I should be paying more attention to the work, but I can't concentrate on anything. I am tired, and I want to be home where everything is not the same and these people do not exist. I whine, and lean on your shoulder, and you make a surprised face as you put your arm around me.

Everything is blue and grey and going black.
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My sleep was restless. It took a long time to drop off, curled over on my side half in and half out of myself.

birthday

Melynda took me to lunch at Houston's, our favorite steak place. The food is always prepared exactly as you wish, the service is great, and the atmosphere of the restaraunt is pleasant and well suited to quiet meals for two or larger gatherings. They put anchovies in my Ceasar salad, and my steak is as rare as can be legally served. My filet was sweet, melting and delicious.

We talked and talked, and it is one of the things I love about this friendship. We may be such different people in certain ways, but we work well together.

Afterwards, we sped off to Best Buy. Now we own the newest Placebo album so I can listen to it in my car, The Ref and Ghost in the Shell. Two movies we shall undoubtedly watch eight million times.

Wearing my soft, long sleeved grey shirt because my night of restless sleep has left me wanting some kind of comfort. Not looking forward to work, but I glady traded the time off for those days in New York.