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more coherent this time round
Aug. 17th, 2003 04:08 pmSo despite my genuine insomnia and sleep deprived madnessm I had a very lovely lunch with Cate, Jacob and Max at this odd Italian chain restaraunt that served the biggest ravioli I've ever seen. The food kept me going, and calm the many cups of coffee eating away at my stomach lining.
First we went to this weird store that seemed to be staffed by ex-strippers and had racks of all sorts of fancy dresses. Tried on lots of things to get the feel of what sort of dress I was looking for. I honestly don't know how anyone ends up in a dress that bows out three feet around. I felt like I would surely fall over.
Then we wandered on down the block to another store, this one more into weddings and such. The sales girl there was very nice, and I was relieved not to feel pressured by anyone. Cate was so much fun, even if she did want me to try on the pink dress. Instead I tried on the dress with the purple things.
We found these cool what I would call Stevie Nicks dresses with long gauzy sleeves. The first one was pretty spiffy, very much the right sort of shape and all. But the second one was perfect, very simple and beautiful. It has very thin straps that go over the shoulder, and the sleeves are loose and long. There's some clear, sparkly sort of beading at the neckline and the skirt is easy to walk in as is doesn't have any giant pouf. The whole thing is remarkably comfortable, and I actually look forward to wearing it.
Alan adores it, which makes me feel less nervous about the whole thing. He took one look at it when I came home and pronounced it to be "the dress" and got this big silly grin on his face. No superstitious wedding hoohah about the dress for us. Of course I wanted to show it to him.
I think one of the reasons I haven't really included many people in on the planning other than Cate is because I'm morbidly afraid of people saying things like, "You're not supposed to do that," or "You need to do it this way," etc,etc. I have this fear of Alan and I's wedding becoming a showpiece of things other people want. It's not that I want to be Bridezilla or anything like that. I just want this done in a way that makes us both happy, and various traditions be damned if they don't fit in our plans.
I tried for hours to fall asleep after I came home. Managed a two hour nap, and was then up til close to 4am. Even the gin didn't help. It was a weirdly stressful evening, which I blame on not feeling well, lack of sleep and some sort of allergic reaction. Thankfully I'm breathing much better today.
Time to curl up and read.
First we went to this weird store that seemed to be staffed by ex-strippers and had racks of all sorts of fancy dresses. Tried on lots of things to get the feel of what sort of dress I was looking for. I honestly don't know how anyone ends up in a dress that bows out three feet around. I felt like I would surely fall over.
Then we wandered on down the block to another store, this one more into weddings and such. The sales girl there was very nice, and I was relieved not to feel pressured by anyone. Cate was so much fun, even if she did want me to try on the pink dress. Instead I tried on the dress with the purple things.
We found these cool what I would call Stevie Nicks dresses with long gauzy sleeves. The first one was pretty spiffy, very much the right sort of shape and all. But the second one was perfect, very simple and beautiful. It has very thin straps that go over the shoulder, and the sleeves are loose and long. There's some clear, sparkly sort of beading at the neckline and the skirt is easy to walk in as is doesn't have any giant pouf. The whole thing is remarkably comfortable, and I actually look forward to wearing it.
Alan adores it, which makes me feel less nervous about the whole thing. He took one look at it when I came home and pronounced it to be "the dress" and got this big silly grin on his face. No superstitious wedding hoohah about the dress for us. Of course I wanted to show it to him.
I think one of the reasons I haven't really included many people in on the planning other than Cate is because I'm morbidly afraid of people saying things like, "You're not supposed to do that," or "You need to do it this way," etc,etc. I have this fear of Alan and I's wedding becoming a showpiece of things other people want. It's not that I want to be Bridezilla or anything like that. I just want this done in a way that makes us both happy, and various traditions be damned if they don't fit in our plans.
I tried for hours to fall asleep after I came home. Managed a two hour nap, and was then up til close to 4am. Even the gin didn't help. It was a weirdly stressful evening, which I blame on not feeling well, lack of sleep and some sort of allergic reaction. Thankfully I'm breathing much better today.
Time to curl up and read.