drugs

A trip to my doctor's office netted me a sack full of samples of painkillers, and a prescription for my very own bottle of hydrocodone. It seems a bit excessive, but then we didn't know exactly when I would get into the dentist's office. A nice fellow named Ronnie gave me some gum-numbing gel he had to use this morning too.

I did manage to get an appointment for tomorrow, so they will do x-rays and see what the hell is wrong with my teeth. So not looking forward to that. Dreading it in fact.

Time to take medicine and curl up on the couch with limeade.

I stole it from Sarah...

name four bad habits you have:
- smoking too much when drinking
- procrastination
- road rage
- biting my nails

name four things you wish you had:
- a house of my own
- a ridiculously large emerald
- a home office with many computers
- a pony

name four scents you love:
- citrus fruits
- coffee
- mountain laurels
- linden trees

name four things you would never wear:
- mini skirts that barely cover the pubic bone
- those stupid low slung jeans
- "bondage pants" from Hot Topic
- anything Paris Hilton would wear

name four things you are thinking about right now:
- the scary Fox show The Swan
- tomorrow's dental exam
- our bank balances and bills
- my cat

name four things that you have done today:
- worked eight hours
- visited the doctor
- gone to Best Buy
- eaten dumplings

name the last four things you bought:
- underwear
- cigarettes
- energy beverage
- chocolate chip cookies

name four bands/groups most people don't know you like:
- Nightwish
- Willie Nelson
- Ice Cube
- Belle and Sebastian

name four drinks you have regularly:
- coffee
- diet soda
- limeade
- wine

name four random facts about yourself:
- I have a large chunk of gravel in my palm from a bike accident
- my first cat was an orange tabby named Tango
- when I was five I wanted to be a mail man because I thought it would be an easy job
- the easiest paper I wrote in college was a Freudian analysis of Raskolnikov's dreams in Crime & Punishment

swans

I watched The Swan tonight on Fox, because I've got a morbid voyeuristic streak in me. The key to reality programming is this creeping desire to see just what the hell happens next, and The Swan gives that up in spades and in one of the most creepy ways possible. In its way, the show is genius.

I can't help but think of the team of surgeons and specialists as a horde of vampires having a ball. This does seem like the sort of thing the Toreador would do, after all.

What's hideous about this show is that girls on tonight, and most likely the others, are people with genuine emotional and psychologial issues. Instead of giving them therapy, personal trainers and things to improve their lives, they get marathon plastic surgery and exercise/diet boot camp. What happens when they go home? Is their physical beauty meant to be some kind of shield against the world? What happens when the woman goes back to overeating and not exercising? Can you imagine suffering through all that liposuction and then gaining that weight back?

I suppose they are all adults, and they did make the choice. Plastic surgery isn't always an evil thing. It can be used for good, so to speak. The evil lies more in our cultural obsession with impossible, arbitraty standards of beauty. Not everyone needs to be a praying mantis god model. Some women look a hell of a lot better with real curves and unique features.

The shots of the puffy faces and hobbling bodies certainly don't make me want to ever go through any of that. Crikey.

Time for sleep.