everything is annoying

I just realized that not only did my cousin schedule her wedding for the weekend when Prisoner of Azkaban debuts, it is also the weekend of the Belmont Stakes! The weekend of the race where there's a horse that could take the Triple Crown for the first time since 1978! Damn it. I have to drive to my least favorite city in Texas, on a weekend where Melynda won't even be there, and miss the race. I completely realize how petty this sounds, but I am annoyed.

Finances have become quite strained, given the spate of medical bills and unexpected expenses lately. It's better than it could be, I suppose, since I had saved up money for just such emergencies. It's frustrating and depressing to know you have exactly $43 left in the checking account until the next paycheck. It's even worse when it's me, quietly fretting over this. I hate the money, I hate the money. I hate worrying about it. I hate being poor. I hate not having any sort of financial security. I hate knowing that I can't fucking afford my favorite restaraunt and a birthday dinner. Another superbly petty moment in the grand scheme of things, but there it is. At least I know how ridiculous it sounds.

In the meantime, I will research options for escape.

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tonight was good

Made my way to Sarah's lovely apartment despite the best efforts of the guy in the white pickup who wanted to change lanes directly into my large red vehicle. What a freaking moron. Any how, she lives in a beautiful complex up off Steck, with many trees and a fountain in the pool. Met her roommates, engaged in a fearsome Monopoly battle. We sat out on her patio with the Christmas lights and the fading twilight, drinking cider and talking about all sorts of random things. Everything from history professors to high school AP classes and European showers. I had a grand time, and she even sent me home with a book to read!

On the way home, I drove in a round about manner as I was conversing with Gene. It's been awhile since the two of us hung out, and hopefully we can change that this weekend. I get paid on Friday I realized, which alleviates some of the financial stress. I just paid the cell phone bill, so that helps.

Alan is asleep, and I think I want to go join him.