reflections on the water

There are breaks in the clouds, ragged bits of eggshell blue behind the grey fluff. There's some genuine sunlight, which is nice after so many days of darkness. I wish it would stay so cool for just a bit longer. It's so unusual to have temperatures below 90 in June.

Milada's funeral is today, but we could not go. Bereavement leave is only allowed for immediate family, or something like that which is utter bullshit. Still, I do not like funerals. I have been allowed to attend exactly two, one for my grandfather and one for a friend who shot himself while I was in high school. I was deemed to young for my paternal great grandmother's funeral, and too far away for my maternal great grandmother's a few years back. I only regret not going so as to provide comfort for the living. Thankfully in both the services I attended there was no coffin, no waiting body. I don't think I will be able to handle that, should it come.

Loving the GMail, and the way it stacks. I think I will handle my personal life out of it, and leave my yahoo accounts for online shopping, banking, RPGs and other such things. Aside from a moment of searching all over my screen for the contacts list, it is a very nice system.

I very much wish I could be doing something other than working and staring at FEMA maps today.