between cities

I need a WoW icon.

Okay, giant floating necropolis? Pretty creepy. Blizzard does not make it easy to watch those damn trailers. Too much downloading. It's not that I mind DiVX at all, it's that I mind the extra steps I have to take in getting all this to run. But I watched the Burning Crusade Trailer, and that was pretty exciting. I should perhaps hurry up and get my warrior to sixty sometime soon. Blood elves! At last the horde side has a pretty race, hah. Seriously though, evil elves, I like that. The WoW/iCoke commercial is also ridiculous and amusing in only the way foreign commercials can be.

I had dreams about getting lost on the way to Houston, and trying to call Tyler but drunk girls answering his phone instead. There was rain in the dream. It was so much more stressful than it needed to be. I threw myself into the shower to scrub the weird memories and dreams away. It's funny. There are parts of my life I can't or don't remember due to the medications I was on in high school. I think I would rather have those back, and selectively delete some parts of my more recent living. what I wouldn't give for a pensieve.

My motivation to get up and go into work is zero right now. Maybe I need to start mainlining this coffee.

without expectation

My eyes feel swollen and itchy, and I think there is some creeping nameless horror growing in that training room. Three people in the class have suffered terrible asthma attacks, and everyone else is having some kind of headache/sneezing misery. There was some kind of mold in the carpet?!? Yargh. Halfway through the day I moved my trainee person to my desk and we worked there instead. I think that room is doomed. I can't wait til we move into a new clean building with more bathrooms.

The training supervisor complimented me today at our meeting for handling some difficult situations with my trainee. I was pleased and slightly surprised, because at the time it didn't seem like a big thing. She is very, very nervous, and has a hard time with some things. But I think she will end up okay. I do feel somewhat awkward with her at times because she's old enough to be my mother and I hope she doesn't resent that some young thing is giving her directions on how to do everything. I try to be nice and funny and make the process easy. We'll see. I have to write a performance review sometime tonight.

Life is swinging along, much as it ever was. I've been divorced six months and a few days now. It's kind of strange to think it has only been a relatively short span of time. But I suppose since I left my marriage in June last year, it really has been longer. Weird. I keeping starting/stopping journal entries on the subject because I'm unsure of what to say about it now.

So I've gone on a couple dates, thrown myself back into that terrifying part of living. Now that I've done that without completely freaking out, it seems a little easier. It's such a big ego boost to go out and know you're attractive and interesting to someone else, and that your past doesn't make you undesirable completely. I'm not sure that I want to write publicly about it much yet, but we'll see. So far, so very good. I sat down to think about it and I've never really had any span of time where I was casually dating anyone. I've always just fallen into these relationships that became serious, steady things relatively quickly. This is new, dating without expectation. I have to say, I dig this.

I need to make mix cds for my road tripping. I need new music. I also need a new tattoo, but I'll settle for some music.