idoru tilt

There is a lot on the news, sandwiched in between all the other things, about a girl who killed herself in the bathroom at her high school yesterday. It makes me ache. Everything that I consider real in my life happened to me in the years after my suicide attempt. I wish that girl had been stupid like me, taken a less immediate route than a gun. Maybe someone would have found her and she could have started over. I don't know. No one knows anything in these situations.

I don't know this kid, why it happened or what took her to that place. But I ache because it is so close to home, physically and metaphorically.

Today I sat down and read my way through a book. I need to stop reading a book in one day. It is less expensive than drugs or possibly even cigarettes, but still. I am trying to read things I haven't touched in a long time or maybe never got around to in the first place.

Seriously though, reading too much William Gibson too fast will make the world tilt sideways like you stood up too fast after giving blood. I had to click away from the news because it all stopped making any sense for a moment there.

In other less enlightening news, I baked a caramel cake with some apple bits. Now I'm making dinner which will hopefully turn out to be a nice pork and rice affair with lots of salsa.

psa

I have this here to read my friends as the LJ Diaspora slowly shakes itself out. I probably will not post much here. But this is the same tsarina as on LJ.