2013-10-02

threeplusfire: (Sebastian)
2013-10-02 09:54 am

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My dreams are weird lately. They alternate between scenes of terror and moments of comfort. The other night it felt a bit like a video game, where I kept playing scenarios over and over trying to get out - or at least to keep myself from being shot by this dude stalking me over a laptop.

Things go slowly.

There's this song, I dance to at the club whenever the DJs play it. American Trash. It's great. But I heard it a couple weeks ago, and I was watching the video and it has made me sad ever since. (Specifically the part around 2:45-3:05 I guess) Every time I think I'm going to start going through all the photos I brought back from my father's place, I see this in my head and I just have to stop.

Because really. What are we anymore.

I'm glad it is getting colder. It feels okay to be sad when it is cold.