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DAY TEN: a letter to the person you hate the most or caused you a lot of pain

I feel a bit weird with this one, probably because I'm not in the most mentally healthy place at this point in time. I've worked hard to remove people from my life that provoke feelings of hate. I have absolutely nothing to say to the person who sexually assaulted me or the man who tormented me in high school or the adults who did not listen to us about what was happening.

Don't get me wrong. I have rage. But I have nothing to say about it. At least not today.

So maybe just a letter to someone who hurt me, once upon a time.

Dear ----,

I was in love with you, you know. Really just head over heels for you. You made me feel real. I thought you really saw me. But oh what a fool I was for you. Coming back down to reality was the worst. I don't think I'll let my heart run like that again. I hope that maybe you'll grow up, get smarter. One day you might regret what happened between us. But probably not. That's okay. We all go on, even if it seemed impossible at the time. I miss what I thought you were. But I took the things you gave me and ran on my own when you failed me.

No longer my heart,
A.

( For all the other days )