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lasers online
Oct. 12th, 2014 11:08 amI keep reaching for my glasses when I get out of the shower.
The only unpleasant side effect I've had aside from the lingering feeling of soreness is that I get a pretty wide halo effect on headlights and street lamps. I'm hoping that dies down some. It's not so bad I can't drive but it is kind of annoying. The soreness should fade soon. Basically my actual eyes are bruised and a bit swollen from having a laser carving them up. (Which let's admit is a fucking bizarre sentence to write)I'm still sleeping in the ski goggles just for my own peace of mind. I flail in my sleep.
But otherwise things are good. I can see very clearly, just as well as I ever could with my glasses. I try to remember to blink a lot so my eyes don't dry out. I'm glad we have this rainy, cloudy weekend so things aren't too bright because I'm still a little sensitive to light.
It seems like such a vain, small thing to do. I could have dropped this chunk of money on the mortgage or something responsible. But fuck it. I made a pretty impulsive decision by my standards and went with it. The world didn't end because I did something purely, selfishly for myself. It's okay.
My thighs and my ankles ache more than my eyes right now though. I ran four miles yesterday, then ten and a half this morning. It soothes the rage in me to push myself through the "oh god why am I doing this I just want to stop" stage and into the "my heart is cold like the void of space and keep breathing keep moving to the beat in your headphones" stage.
I like running to Daft Punk, Glitch Mob, Covenant and Mind.In.A.Box the best. It empties me out and the silence behind my eyes is a relief. I spend so much time thinking and it gets so loud. But those 100 minutes are only the sound of the music and my own breathing.
The only unpleasant side effect I've had aside from the lingering feeling of soreness is that I get a pretty wide halo effect on headlights and street lamps. I'm hoping that dies down some. It's not so bad I can't drive but it is kind of annoying. The soreness should fade soon. Basically my actual eyes are bruised and a bit swollen from having a laser carving them up. (Which let's admit is a fucking bizarre sentence to write)I'm still sleeping in the ski goggles just for my own peace of mind. I flail in my sleep.
But otherwise things are good. I can see very clearly, just as well as I ever could with my glasses. I try to remember to blink a lot so my eyes don't dry out. I'm glad we have this rainy, cloudy weekend so things aren't too bright because I'm still a little sensitive to light.
It seems like such a vain, small thing to do. I could have dropped this chunk of money on the mortgage or something responsible. But fuck it. I made a pretty impulsive decision by my standards and went with it. The world didn't end because I did something purely, selfishly for myself. It's okay.
My thighs and my ankles ache more than my eyes right now though. I ran four miles yesterday, then ten and a half this morning. It soothes the rage in me to push myself through the "oh god why am I doing this I just want to stop" stage and into the "my heart is cold like the void of space and keep breathing keep moving to the beat in your headphones" stage.
I like running to Daft Punk, Glitch Mob, Covenant and Mind.In.A.Box the best. It empties me out and the silence behind my eyes is a relief. I spend so much time thinking and it gets so loud. But those 100 minutes are only the sound of the music and my own breathing.