to many ghosts, all of you I loved

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I'm singing,
while I'm watching you walk backwards.

My voice breaks, when I cry out
All this yearning, gotten old
How do we keep going on like this?

He used to tell me what a fool I was
For burning all the old words
But when I look over my shoulder and see myself
I can't take it

You were always much better than me, at these sorts of things

I saw a ghost yesterday, that I didn't recognize until much too late
And I keep thinking, John, did you ever forgive me for being so young?
I can still hear the music in the car, the poem I wrote on the dashboard

It was always this way
All the years I lived for moments in cars,
The silence I struggled to break
And the mystery I fought to keep.

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I really did see one of them yesterday, not the one, but one of the ones I loved.