threeplusfire: (king)
three ([personal profile] threeplusfire) wrote2003-04-20 10:49 am

10:43am, I want a horse

I am beginning to think I have some strange curse. For days on end now, every time I wake up it's 10:43am.

I dreamed last night, those painfully vivid dreams. About Hana and Keith taking us to the Czech Republic, and this castle on a cliff with a long path and the curving valley. There were horses, like the horses of Rohan but they were all white like Shadowfax. They moved liked ghosts, guarding the place against what I do not know. Everyone assumed Gene and I were on our honeymoon, and I remember arguing in French with Keith in a little cafe, and Otto buying box after box of cigarettes.

All I want to do right now is go back to sleep, even as beautiful as the day is. I could use a serious span of time alone, but that won't happen. Bad enough I wanted to cry last night, but to wake up and cry for all the damned things that are not in the world.

Maybe I will just go buy soda. My head still aches.