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threeplusfire) wrote2000-12-18 10:57 pm
threeplusfire) wrote2000-12-18 10:57 pm
sound out loud
I like the ou vowel sound in English.
It occurs to me that it seems random to profess faith in God, and still have panic attacks about the nature of reality. I spent the first eighteen years of my life as an atheist. There is still a lot of hardwired reaction inside me, the things I grew up with.
Slowly I'm taking it apart and looking into myself. Some things come easier now, others don't. Faith is still hard. But I don't think it is supposed to be easy.
I believe. I believe. I have trouble trusting, but I do believe.
Tomorrow I'm going to run and run and run.....
It occurs to me that it seems random to profess faith in God, and still have panic attacks about the nature of reality. I spent the first eighteen years of my life as an atheist. There is still a lot of hardwired reaction inside me, the things I grew up with.
Slowly I'm taking it apart and looking into myself. Some things come easier now, others don't. Faith is still hard. But I don't think it is supposed to be easy.
I believe. I believe. I have trouble trusting, but I do believe.
Tomorrow I'm going to run and run and run.....