First off, I know we're an internet-only kinda relationship, here, so take my words however you like, but maybe a chunk of salt is necessary.
I don't answer the phone at home, generally. It's not gonna be for me. I rarely answer my cel-phone because if it's a number I don't recognize, they can leave a message. I hate talking on the phone. The phone is a tool. I don't chat. I transmit or accept information. But after years of being like this, most people around me understand this.
The part that concerns me is the "Everything is so grey" comment. I talked with my doctor, years ago now, about depression after realizing that I wasn't "depressed" so much as apathetic. I'd specifically chosen to abjure the highs and lows of an emotionally unstable lifepath, but after too many years in that grey rut, I had lost the way out. It's a condition I still fight on a daily basis. If this greyness is spilling out and leeching the color from your life, you might wanna look at ways to deal with it... For me, I'm convinced it's the introduction, the fostering of one of more passions.
As to the online party... I've hosted a couple of thematic chat sessions for things before and had noone come. Some were even advertised in some special forums and everything... certainly a not a high-point of my life, neither.
Getting married does change your relationships with everyone else. Do you know what you're expecting of others now? Do you know what they're expecting of you? Do they know these things too?
Sorry for the rant. But if you need an ear/reader, sometimes the distant, folks who aren't really a part of your circle can be a good choice. For you, I'd be willing to do that.
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branchandroot
Everything is so Grey
Date: 2005-01-02 11:39 pm (UTC)I don't answer the phone at home, generally. It's not gonna be for me. I rarely answer my cel-phone because if it's a number I don't recognize, they can leave a message. I hate talking on the phone. The phone is a tool. I don't chat. I transmit or accept information. But after years of being like this, most people around me understand this.
The part that concerns me is the "Everything is so grey" comment. I talked with my doctor, years ago now, about depression after realizing that I wasn't "depressed" so much as apathetic. I'd specifically chosen to abjure the highs and lows of an emotionally unstable lifepath, but after too many years in that grey rut, I had lost the way out. It's a condition I still fight on a daily basis. If this greyness is spilling out and leeching the color from your life, you might wanna look at ways to deal with it... For me, I'm convinced it's the introduction, the fostering of one of more passions.
As to the online party... I've hosted a couple of thematic chat sessions for things before and had noone come. Some were even advertised in some special forums and everything... certainly a not a high-point of my life, neither.
Getting married does change your relationships with everyone else. Do you know what you're expecting of others now? Do you know what they're expecting of you? Do they know these things too?
Sorry for the rant. But if you need an ear/reader, sometimes the distant, folks who aren't really a part of your circle can be a good choice. For you, I'd be willing to do that.