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three ([personal profile] threeplusfire) wrote2001-04-30 11:30 pm

spark brain

My head aches. My roommate insists on turning the AC on. It's 72 outside. Weirdo.

I wish I was doing something fun, something stimulating, something exciting. I wish I was learning from something tonight. Perhaps my real dissatisfaction with my life is that I feel like I don't have the opportunity to be around intelligent people having intelligent discussions in a reasonable, interesting manner. It's why I like school. I can visit my professors and talk about the American educational system, literature, politics, squirrels, etc. It's like pulling teeth sometimes to get my peers to have such discussions. It happens sometimes, but not enough. I feel starved sometimes for intellectual content. Perhaps that is why I like to read the journals of so many writers and other fascinating people on Livejournal. I hear another voice, another set of ideas, something new. A world I've never seen. I don't feel like I grow enough, or that I get challenged seriously. I want to learn. Feed my brain.

I'm thinking I should move my computer back into my bedroom soon. Sitting out here listening to the television is hardly inspiring, especially when someone is watching something incredibly boring. Maybe I'm just still uncomfortable in this space that is not totally my own. It still bothers me.

To bed I go. Hopefully to pleasant dreams about squirrels and professors and Russian literature. No more nightmares. I slept quite poorly last night, who knows why. I should change my sheets. The blue ones are not nearly so comfortable as the red ones. I want more sheets like these, so soft and wonderful. Why must sheets be so expensive?

so many books, so little time

[identity profile] tsarina.livejournal.com 2001-05-01 05:51 am (UTC)(link)
Oh, one can always find the library, and thank god for that. I have a Russian professor who is always handing me books from his graduate seminar. Right now I'm reading Pushkin House by Bitov.

Sometimes it is just hard to find people to talk about books with outside of classrooms. Or finding someone to talk about domestic politics, international politics, current events, or something. Hard to find people my own age interested in these things, which is sad in a University environment.

Thank God for my professors, my closest friend and the library. I'd go mad without them. :)

Re: so many books, so little time

[identity profile] avva.livejournal.com 2001-05-02 08:17 am (UTC)(link)
Right now I'm reading Pushkin House by Bitov.

Hmm, I didn't even know it was translated into English. Yep, it's a good read.

Hard to find people my own age interested in these things, which is sad in a University environment.

Which university is that?

Re: so many books, so little time

[identity profile] tsarina.livejournal.com 2001-05-03 09:11 am (UTC)(link)
Reading Bitov for some reason reminds me of when I started reading William S. Burroughs in high school. I think the translation is very recent, as my professor was on a mad quest to procure books a few months ago.

I attend the University of Texas in Austin. Largest university in America, with some 50,000 students. There is nowhere to park, thank heavens for the bus.

I shouldn't complain so much about my peers, they just get on my nerves sometimes. It's strange for me, because I started college young and I always seem to be the youngest person in the group. Most of the people in my department are fairly cool and never hassle me about it. I just feel old around other people my age often.