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Apr. 18th, 2005 11:21 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
threeplusfireI went to Texpresso, and Tyler did not show. Silly me, I forgot my phone and now it is too late to call him to figure out if we had our times and places crossed.
I ran into someone I knew from work, and talked with a stranger for a bit. I think she is a new friend. We laughed about tram inspectors and drinking overseas a lot.
Too late, too much coffee and now I think I need a shower. The past several days have been exhausting in the process of thinking, reshaping my mental landscape and evaluating my life. I feel like such a fuckign bastard in some respects and I'm so angry about some other things. I live with this constant feeling that I'm not measuring up to the expectations of other people. In some ways I really have failed and made some shitty mistakes. I have been a bastard to someone who truly didn't deserve that treatment, and I still don't know how to apologize.
I'm also dealing with some other things, and a lot of anger because I feel like I have to justify some of my choices to everyone and kingdom come.
Alan and I are trying to make our cat lose weight. How sad is that? the cat is trying to trick us into more food. Le sigh.
I ran into someone I knew from work, and talked with a stranger for a bit. I think she is a new friend. We laughed about tram inspectors and drinking overseas a lot.
Too late, too much coffee and now I think I need a shower. The past several days have been exhausting in the process of thinking, reshaping my mental landscape and evaluating my life. I feel like such a fuckign bastard in some respects and I'm so angry about some other things. I live with this constant feeling that I'm not measuring up to the expectations of other people. In some ways I really have failed and made some shitty mistakes. I have been a bastard to someone who truly didn't deserve that treatment, and I still don't know how to apologize.
I'm also dealing with some other things, and a lot of anger because I feel like I have to justify some of my choices to everyone and kingdom come.
Alan and I are trying to make our cat lose weight. How sad is that? the cat is trying to trick us into more food. Le sigh.