quiet

[threeplusfire]

There are moments when all I want is to be free. To be single, to stay up all night and answer to no one. To be a sleepless academic working on papers and drinking with my professors.

Sometimes I really do want to get married.

And I don't know which one I'm going to eventually choose. I hate this not-knowing that plagues too much of my life. For once, I just want to know and be done with it.

"A poet is, before anything else, a person who is passionately in
love with language." -- W.H. Auden

Watching my little airplane plant lift its leaves to the sun, I wish I had something to say about this morning. Bright yellow sunshine on my balcony. Chattering birds. I forgot to write on Saturday about the pool. I spent an hour or so down at the pool near my building. Remarkably quiet for a space so near the homes of so many. The only company I had were large ravens, talking loudly to each other and sometimes circling the sky. A few monarch butterflies and a blue-green dragonfly. I've seen so many butterflies lately. Swimming in the morning when everything is still calm soothes me, takes awaysome of that nervous edge.

Comments

[seitvonzu.livejournal.com]

what is an airplane plant? i know someone who i would very much like to get one for?

i haven't seen any butterflies here :( perhaps it's too cold.

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[tsarina.livejournal.com]

I think they are also called spiderplants. They have long green leaves, very slender with white edges. Very easy to grow. They clump, a bunch of these long narrow leaves falling outwards. Very sun loving. Cats seem to like to chew on them.I wish I knew the scientific name. I'm sure if you asked at a nursery they would know what you are talking about.

I think the monarchs are getting ready for their annual migration. Maybe you will seem them soon. :)

[seitvonzu.livejournal.com]

Thanks for the info :) it's very important it say "airplane plant " :)
but i'm sure a plant would be hard to mail. and the person would probably kill it :) so i'll just send food like usual :)
Thanks

[zombiechu.livejournal.com]

You have time to do both! It just means dedicating time to yourself before you choose to bring someone elses joys and burdens into your own.