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Tyler's supposedly giving me lessons in controlling my emotions. These lessons largely seem to consist of him finding new places where I am ticklish. But really, it is something we talk about, because we all know that Tyler can be absolutely glacial. I like to think I've made some progress from the out of control bundle of emotions I was at fifteen. I care too much about things, and it shows. I doubt I'll ever stop caring, even about the things I can't change. But I can make the effort not to let that run me and every reaction. I'm going to have to break down and start exerting some self control. I'm sure it would make my parents happy to hear, given what a hysterical child I was and prone to absolute fits.

In the end, it will all fit together. I'm going to put my life together the way I want it to be. I think I'm finally almost done with my grieving for things that can't be returned.

edited to add 3:06pm
This icon made me laugh so hard, for so many reasons.

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I think I'm finally almost done with my grieving for things that can't be returned.

That's a HUGE step, dear. Kudos to you.

thanks. I'm working on it.

Your new default icon is hilarious. Is it from American Psycho?

Equilibrium, actually, but it is our charming psycho Christian Bale.

I'm pretty unfazable, too.

The best thing I ever learned in that came from this one line:

"Am I going to give [that person/thing/circumstance] the power to ruin my day?"

Once I realised that I was giving them power over me (even enough to ruin my next five minutes), I learned how to choose to NOT let them affect me. That's not to say that such a power should be used excessively - it has its dark side as detachment -- but there's the secret I found.