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[threeplusfire]

More memesheepism: How many times has someone on your friends list posted about something and you were really confused, but you didn't want to ask because you knew you SHOULD know? How many times have you felt guilty asking a close LJ friend a question that should be obvious?

Well, here's your chance.

If you've missed a few things, missed an entry and are confused, ask me anything. Even something EXTREMELY basic, like where I live! I'm not allowed to get even slightly irritated at any of the questions - we've all missed things before. (I reserve the right to answer questions in email if it's something I don't want to discuss in public.)

In other news, I am superbly lame and ingested enough dishsoap this morning to cause pain and nauseau. Suck. Really. I shoul;d not try to make coffee when not awake.

Comments

[annathyst]

I feel really bad asking this, because it's so intensely personal, but I missed hearing about exactly what led to your divorce. I remember your posts about the wedding and then how happy you were, and then some time later I saw a post relating to the divorce before you refiltered or privated it, and then it was basically over. You really don't have to answer if you don't want to.

[tsarina.livejournal.com]

This is the only big public post about it. I did write a hell of a lot about the divorce at a certain point, but that's mostly been heavily filtered down because the personal details were just so wrenching on many levels. There was also a lot of ugliness when my husband threw me out, and I decided to lawyer up.

The abridged version is that my former husband suffers from a mental illness and substance abuse problems. I kept it quiet for a long time, and I tried to do what I could to save him from himself. In the end, that wasn't enough and I had to learn the hard way. I lived through months of lies, of fear, of doubt, of loneliness and the horror of losing the person I wanted to wake up beside for the rest of my life. All because of this illness that he couldn't or wouldn't accept or handle.

[kleverkira.livejournal.com]

I think I remember a long time ago you talking about your involvement in the Catholic church, and then that seemed to suddenly stop. What was the reason for that? Or, if it's easier, talk about your personal history with the Church.

[tsarina.livejournal.com]

my faith has ever been a fragile thing.

The gist of the story is that I have a lot of doubts, and I have some very large issues with the Catholic church as an insitution on Earth. (The big stand outs would have to be the Church's views on homosexuality, and women) I think the ritual and mystery of the Church is one of the few things that has allowed me to make some spiritual inroads and really feel that connection. But I don't know how much I should belong to an organization that would take a very dim view of my sexuality. So I've stopped going, because I feel uncomfortable taking Communion often and I haven't been to confession in a very long time.

One day, I hope to square my own personal issues of faith, and find out if I really belong in the Church or somewhere else.

[nnnslogan.livejournal.com]

Ugh, that would suck to swallow dishsoap!

I guess at least you have clean insides! ;)

[tsarina.livejournal.com]

Haha, funny man.