sometimes the world is unfair

[threeplusfire]

I put my head down on my desk and cried for a good five minutes in the middle of the day. It was about a boy who died. It wasn't so awful on the scale of things because it wasn't a death by abuse unlike the two others I had this week. The child died from complications of surgery and his numerous disabilities. I cried, because it was so just horribly wrong of the universe for a ten year old to have a heart attack and die after he was finally in the care of a loving guardian who kept him safe and got him the care he needed. I kept imagining his foster mother rushing into the hospital after getting the call about his heart attack and not knowing he was gone. I pictured his caseworker, getting the call from the foster agency. I kept imagining his siblings, who have already lost their mother and all other family members learning this afternoon that their brother is never coming home. I wonder about the reaction of the biological mother, or if the caseworker can even find her to tell her. It hit me so hard, right smack out of the blue.

Comments

[gypsy-pie.livejournal.com]

Yeah. *hugs*

[tsarina.livejournal.com]

Yeah, pretty much.

[rawumber.livejournal.com]

Snugs

[tsarina.livejournal.com]

I know you know this feeling. Thanks.

[ladyofthelog.livejournal.com]

*hugs*

[tsarina.livejournal.com]

Thanks.

[bronchitikat.livejournal.com]

*Hugs*

Life really sucks sometimes, & I suppose you get to see more of it than many of us. At least the boy had known some love by the end?

[tsarina.livejournal.com]

There is that, at least he was in a home that was safe and where people cared for him and his siblings. Far better than dying at the hands of a crack addict, or of starvation, or some other such thing. But still, it makes me sad that his respite was so brief.

[onyxlynxx.livejournal.com]

When they die while still in a horrible situation, you can feel like at least their suffering is at an end. I can certainly understand why this child dying when he was finally safe feels so cruel. *hugs*