office politics
Nov. 2nd, 2007 11:13 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
threeplusfireTo state that yesterday was mildly uncomfortable would be understatement on the scale of "waterboarding is kind of scary." We presented our (apparently three and a half hour) training on night procedures. This was the training we only had about three days to prepare. Nothing is so irksome as someone suggesting we can be as creative as we want when we only have three days to create something completely from scratch. My part of the business was the actual exercise/competancy/knowledge retention part. It was abruptly severed from the rest of the training by the arrival of the uber boss to give his graduation speech to the trainees. Normally this happens in the afternoon, and we had no warning, so I was peeved. Later I was peeved because people were not paying attention, people were not participating, and people were loud. It was not my best showing.
Right before I went home, my direct supervisor called me into her office. Someone apparently told her I was unhappy with my position. I suspect it was probably the most annoying and neurotic trainee, who was eavesdropping on a conversation I had with someone else.
When your boss asks if you're happy with your position, then you have to think of a more politic and polite way to say, "This job makes me fucking crazy." I politely told her I found the chaos of her leadership stressful, and suggested solutions to the problem. Right now she's the only person who has the entire set up, and the rest of us are fumbling in the dark. I can change priorities, and I can multitask like the devil, but I have to have an idea of where we are going. This turned into an hour long meeting, at least half of which will have to be recapped on Monday in a meeting with my coworkers and the other supervisor.
The guilt eats at me. I hate it when they praise me so much, when I am not thrilled with them.
I can only hope that some positive changes can be made. My resume scattering has not turned up anything, even for mediocre jobs. I can't just up and quit with the bills I have to pay, like my car payment and my dental costs. It's unfair to put all the financial responsibility on Mike's shoulders at this stage. I don't know what will end up happening from here. But I think I managed to express some significant dissatisfaction without making an enemy of my boss. One can only hope.
Also, for some reason I seem to be earning twelve hours of vacation leave per month. I don't know when that happened, but I'll take it. I'm going home early.
Right before I went home, my direct supervisor called me into her office. Someone apparently told her I was unhappy with my position. I suspect it was probably the most annoying and neurotic trainee, who was eavesdropping on a conversation I had with someone else.
When your boss asks if you're happy with your position, then you have to think of a more politic and polite way to say, "This job makes me fucking crazy." I politely told her I found the chaos of her leadership stressful, and suggested solutions to the problem. Right now she's the only person who has the entire set up, and the rest of us are fumbling in the dark. I can change priorities, and I can multitask like the devil, but I have to have an idea of where we are going. This turned into an hour long meeting, at least half of which will have to be recapped on Monday in a meeting with my coworkers and the other supervisor.
The guilt eats at me. I hate it when they praise me so much, when I am not thrilled with them.
I can only hope that some positive changes can be made. My resume scattering has not turned up anything, even for mediocre jobs. I can't just up and quit with the bills I have to pay, like my car payment and my dental costs. It's unfair to put all the financial responsibility on Mike's shoulders at this stage. I don't know what will end up happening from here. But I think I managed to express some significant dissatisfaction without making an enemy of my boss. One can only hope.
Also, for some reason I seem to be earning twelve hours of vacation leave per month. I don't know when that happened, but I'll take it. I'm going home early.