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three ([personal profile] threeplusfire) wrote2008-10-01 10:55 pm

LJ Idol, Week 2: I Don't Care About Apathy

People disappoint me. They so often choose small lives. What I should care about is your apathy.

There are a million things I care about passionately, things I believe in and think are crucially important. I have no problem talking about them, writing about them or carrying the flag. But I don't give a damn about your apathy, your disinterest about the world beyond you. I should, shouldn't I? I don't.

Once the second week's topic went up, I started reading the submissions as soon as they appeared. Time spent reading is never wasted, even if it does raise my blood pressure. I expected to be filled with annoyance and wondered how many entries would be thinly veiled excuses for bad behavior. I wondered how I would be able restrain myself from attempting to correct everyone's apathy.

Three days later I am surprised at how little I care about your apathy or the reasons why. Maybe I'm getting old, losing my sharp edge, or maybe I've finally stopped trying to fix everything I see. Perhaps I am just pleasantly surprised by how many stories about apathy are beautiful or creative. Not all apathy is based in grim absence or willful ignorance. Apathy to tyrannies of convention made for lives richer in stories about love, LOLcats, stars and packs of cigarettes. Perhaps a certain amount of apathy about the world is healthier, if it means you're living a life on your own terms.

I don't care about your apathy, but I'm not so worried about it anymore.

[identity profile] lilmissmagic71.livejournal.com 2008-10-02 05:10 am (UTC)(link)
You rock.

Excellent thoughts. I have been thinking the same... i've read some amazing entries.

[identity profile] tsarina.livejournal.com 2008-10-02 06:24 pm (UTC)(link)
Thank you for reading. I really wanted to find a way to some apathy that wasn't negative, which was hard.

[identity profile] jenandbronze.livejournal.com 2008-10-05 01:03 am (UTC)(link)
I agree, there has been some amazing entries... I do love the LOLcat one as well. It has been a fun read for most of the entries I've come across. I try not to be negative, but in my entry, I put a positive ending to the problems I endured, to show the accomplishments I've achieved, despite the "I hate..." and apathy I felt at the time.

Great job.

[identity profile] alexpgp.livejournal.com 2008-10-02 06:31 am (UTC)(link)
Very nicely said.

Cheers...

[identity profile] tsarina.livejournal.com 2008-10-02 06:24 pm (UTC)(link)
Thank you, very much!

[identity profile] bodlon.livejournal.com 2008-10-02 12:02 pm (UTC)(link)
Mmm. Brain fodder. Yes.

[identity profile] tsarina.livejournal.com 2008-10-02 06:23 pm (UTC)(link)
Tasty brain food, now without melamine!

(Also, I have been thinking about getting a printer to enlarge that icon of yours and turning it into a giant yard sign. Just to make the neighbors wonder, hahah.)

[identity profile] elderwoodpixie.livejournal.com 2008-10-02 01:47 pm (UTC)(link)
Very well done. I like!

[identity profile] tsarina.livejournal.com 2008-10-02 06:23 pm (UTC)(link)
Thank you for reading!

[identity profile] bewize.livejournal.com 2008-10-02 01:57 pm (UTC)(link)
I don't care about your apathy, but I'm not so worried about it anymore.

Nice closing line.

I really struggled with this entry, because there are few things about which I am truly apathetic. Even fewer of those things are things I think I should care about.

LOL. I like your take on this.

[identity profile] tsarina.livejournal.com 2008-10-02 06:22 pm (UTC)(link)
Exactly. If I cared enough to be angry or annoyed by something, I didn't feel that qualified as being apathetic. So it took some time to work through ideas, haha.

[identity profile] caersidi.livejournal.com 2008-10-02 05:21 pm (UTC)(link)
Creative approach to the topic. Enjoyed it very much.

[identity profile] tsarina.livejournal.com 2008-10-02 06:19 pm (UTC)(link)
Thank you, I'm glad you enjoyed it. I really wanted to write something that was mired down in negative feelings for this topic.
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[personal profile] shadowwolf13 2008-10-02 07:01 pm (UTC)(link)
Awesome entry :)

[identity profile] tsarina.livejournal.com 2008-10-02 07:17 pm (UTC)(link)
Thank you for reading! (Cute icon, btw)

[identity profile] xo-kizzy-xo.livejournal.com 2008-10-03 04:33 am (UTC)(link)
This is going to sound weird, but I never looked at it in that way before. And now that I've re-read it a couple of times and digested it, it makes perfect sense.

Not trying to fix everything is also wise :)

[identity profile] tsarina.livejournal.com 2008-10-03 09:25 am (UTC)(link)
It's not weird at all - this wasn't the entry I originally intended to write. After a couple false starts it came together into this one. (I'm so distracted by your adorable icon.)

Oh man, one day I am going to learn I don't have to fix everything. My blood pressure will definitely be lower then. ;)

[identity profile] xo-kizzy-xo.livejournal.com 2008-10-03 08:50 pm (UTC)(link)
It took me a long time to develop a "hands off" policy about some things. The urge is still there, though.

Props 2 U

[identity profile] abbismom.livejournal.com 2008-10-03 07:03 pm (UTC)(link)
And she rocks the topic again. I had a feeling you were going to do a complete twist.

Bravo!

Re: Props 2 U

[identity profile] tsarina.livejournal.com 2008-10-03 07:32 pm (UTC)(link)
Aww, thanks.

[identity profile] dabhug.livejournal.com 2008-10-03 09:47 pm (UTC)(link)
Interesting take on everything. Nice job.

[identity profile] tsarina.livejournal.com 2008-10-03 11:16 pm (UTC)(link)
Thank you. The prompt left me pretty cold, so it was an uphill struggle to get something down that I felt confident about.

[identity profile] solstice-singer.livejournal.com 2008-10-03 10:40 pm (UTC)(link)
Very nicely done! A refreshing change from some of the other things that were done with this thread.

[identity profile] tsarina.livejournal.com 2008-10-03 11:17 pm (UTC)(link)
Oh thank you. I had such a time with the prompt, trying to make it work for me. I'm glad you enjoyed reading it.

[identity profile] imafarmgirl.livejournal.com 2008-10-04 02:27 am (UTC)(link)
Really different approach to the topic. Nice.

[identity profile] tsarina.livejournal.com 2008-10-04 05:14 pm (UTC)(link)
Thanks for reading and the kind words.

[identity profile] baxaphobia.livejournal.com 2008-10-04 08:48 am (UTC)(link)
Interesting perspective!

[identity profile] tsarina.livejournal.com 2008-10-04 05:14 pm (UTC)(link)
Thanks! It was a tricky subject since I'm too passionate for my own good.

[identity profile] tigrkittn.livejournal.com 2008-10-04 05:09 pm (UTC)(link)
I like this! I decided a while back that my energy is more well-spent on things I believe in than in being concerned that others don't have the same priorities I do.

[identity profile] tsarina.livejournal.com 2008-10-04 05:12 pm (UTC)(link)
Thank you!

[identity profile] pinkslit.livejournal.com 2008-10-05 04:08 am (UTC)(link)
Nicely done. I can't wait to run across the LOLcats one...

[identity profile] tsarina.livejournal.com 2008-10-05 05:06 pm (UTC)(link)
Thanks! The LOLcats entry is a sweet one. It was one of those things that I wish I had written.

[identity profile] rosepurr.livejournal.com 2008-10-05 04:03 pm (UTC)(link)
I was worried about the "excuses for bad behavior" too.

[identity profile] tsarina.livejournal.com 2008-10-05 05:07 pm (UTC)(link)
Glad to know I wasn't alone on that score. It felt good to see that in the end it wasn't overwhelming.

[identity profile] rosepurr.livejournal.com 2008-10-05 05:40 pm (UTC)(link)
I agree.

[identity profile] thndrstd.livejournal.com 2008-10-05 04:42 pm (UTC)(link)
Nice writing. Great entry.

[identity profile] tsarina.livejournal.com 2008-10-05 05:07 pm (UTC)(link)
Thank you for reading and enjoying. (Aww, cute icon)

[identity profile] thndrstd.livejournal.com 2008-10-05 07:03 pm (UTC)(link)
Thanks. :)

[identity profile] agirlnamedluna.livejournal.com 2008-10-06 03:50 pm (UTC)(link)
I expected to see my blood boil a lot more too. Your entry is the one-before-last I read and I'll have read them all ... and I think I was slightly aggravated (if even that) perhaps 0.5 times.

[identity profile] tsarina.livejournal.com 2008-10-06 05:53 pm (UTC)(link)
Here's to days of lower blood pressure! Thanks for reading.