like my heart is breaking

[threeplusfire]

Each time I open Firefox, I catch the NY Times headlines on my Google homepage. Every time I read the updated AP stories, the articles, the blog posts and links and commentary about Dr Tiller's murder. Each time I start crying, hard, devastated for a man I never met. I'm so angry, and I'm scared, and I don't want to be. I'm so angry that the medical decisions and private lives of women are deemed public property and women unfit to make their own decisions, that a hysterical terrorist side of the debate will always keep us from any reasonable discussion.

Reading posts about the murder, and recently about the experiences of friends who worked as client escorts and volunteers, made me think a lot about my values and my choices. I wish I was half as eloquent and vocal as some people I know, to say something uplifting or inspiring about how we aren't going to let ourselves fall into fear. I wish I could say something suitably vitriolic for all those people condoning murder to support the 'sanctity of life.' I wish I could say anything other than I keep crying like my heart is breaking.

Why late term abortions are necessary. It's never what you think.

Being the daughter of a doctor.

Medical Students for Choice is worthy of your support. Because we need them to be here for us, and they don't deserve to be murdered.

Comments

[sykii.livejournal.com]

There is a silver lining: I have already seen one person in my social circle who described himself as a somewhat equivocal advocate of choice (the sort, as he said, who prefaces every defense of it with "well, I don't like abortion, but") become galvanized by this, realize said equivocation was bullshit, and vow to put his money and time into fighting for choice.
This is not the sort of action that wins the hearts and minds of the many, many people who feel conflicted or ambivalent about reproductive rights.

[genders.livejournal.com]

I would simply like to not see him referred to as an "abortion doctor". I don't call my gastroenterologist my "asshole doctor" just because she performs colonoscopies. And then there's the oft repeated question, which is what part of the words "pro-life" do these murderers not understand?!

[horosha.livejournal.com]

I know what you mean. Such tragedy. Abortions are already psychologically trying enough without having to worry that some nutjob out there is going to murder you. I second genders, only to add when will the "pro-life" groups stop pushing people to these actions only to turn around and pretend to wash their hands with them?

Just awful all-around.