things purchased with my discount today

[threeplusfire]

The Fionavar Tapestry series, by Guy Gavriel Kay
The World of Pies by Karen Stolz
Amerika by Franz Kafka
Lewis Carroll, Photographer, by Helmut Gernsheim
The Sexual Labyrinth of Nikolai Gogol by Simon Karlinsky
The Cat Who Went to Heaven by Elizabeth Coatsworth
The Princess and the Pea Little Golden Book
Throwing Copper, Live, cassette
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Made it to school and to work, despite the horrid traffic, idiots and the humidity that reminded me of time lived in Houston. Work was busy and even productive. I created a new display of shiny new cookbooks. I hope someone wants to make soups and cookies and Italian food. It makes me so happy when I see people buying books I've put out there.

Developed a screaming headache towards the end of the day. It's not so bad now. Pressure, tension, mostly. Dreading coming home. Thankfully the house is empty. I can't face Karen just yet. I'm still so shocked and hurt.

If she had just said something, showed some kind of sympathy instead of acting like I was a bitch for bringing it up all. I think I have badly misunderstood this person. *sigh*

Singing along quietly to my new tape. I got it mostly because of it's associations, riding the bus my freshman year of high school, listening to this tape. It's pretty good actually. You can sing along, you can drive to it. That's all that matters right now.

Next week, another doctor's appointment. I hope when I get my new insurance that I can keep my doctor. He's been my doctor for half my life, and even though I don't like him sometimes, I feel safer there. My mom trusts him, so that is something.

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[jengirl.livejournal.com]

I still read your journal though I haven't posted much. *hugs*

Some people don't take in account that little things mean so much. Hopefully she'll come around but she might not. Thus, you'll need to 'rethink' your association with her. How unfortunate that you guys are roomies. It forces one to deal with the issues rather than letting them go.

Maybe you can talk to her again and let her know how much it hurt you? If she still doesn't come around, then she probably isn't worth the time.

It's amazing how selfish people are ... especially when we least expect it.

I still recall the entry from Prague of the "sunny happy days...". You should keep that in mind to get you through the hard times. :)

*hugs*

When I went to Austin last month I thought about you. :)

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[tsarina.livejournal.com]

I hope the sun comes out soon. It's been raining nonstop since Sunday, and sometimes there is a brief flash of blue sky but it doesn't last long enough.

Thank you for your words and your kindness and everything.

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[jengirl.livejournal.com]

*smiles* Your welcome. There is something in you that reminds me of another part of me that I can seem to revive. You inspire me ... in this way. Strange, I know ... But true. A sort of touching-poetic-feel-all-around-me sort of perspective on life, whether its ups or downs or whatever. I miss that ... so much. I suppose reading your thoughts makes me feel closer to what used to be.

yeah that one

[dragonflychey.livejournal.com]

All the books you got are so interesting to me! I think my Women in Lit prof passed that Lewis Carroll book around when we read Alice in Wonderland. There was the image of the keyhole and Alice in a garden in the book, which is how Carroll was suppose to 'see' and sort of spy on, in a way, the real life Alice that he was obsessed with ...it's late and that made no sense. I'm sorry. but that's a unique book, if it's the one I'm thinking.
And the Gogol one, too. I'm going to be writing about Gogol for my research paper in Russian Literature. I don't know anything about him, tho. By the end of the course I'm sure I'll be an expert, lol. I'd love to hear any impressions you have about him, but only if you feel like it.
Take care,
Chey

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[tsarina.livejournal.com]

Gogol rocks the house. One of the craziest, most fascinating writers of the past couple centuries. I highly recommend his collection of tales, nicely translated and annotated by Pevear & Volokhonsky. They exude a quiet gleam, the simpler life and world full of magic.

Meep meep!

[xiuzan.livejournal.com]

Meep! We missed you on Monday! I hope you get Monday off this week. Maybe it'll help you feel better. Sorry things have been so rough lately. Makes me want to give you a big hug and tell all the bad people (and cats) to go away and leave you alone.

Next time you feel sad at work, just start saying, "Meep" to your coworkers. When they look at you weird, say, "Meep meep!" Maybe it'll make you all laugh.

When you start feeling low when you're alone, think about how glad you are that you don't have Stephanie's kids...or that she's not your mom. Or just picture throwing darts at her head. Muhahahaha! Just remember all the cool things about life. Foreign languages, sweet kittens (notice I said sweet), yummy cake...mmm...cake, puzzles, warm sunshine on a cool day, cool rain on a hot day, fuzzy warm hat in the Russian snow, whatever makes you smile. :)

Feel free to call me or find me on AIM if you ever need someone to talk to or to hang out with.

Anyway, feel better! Hope to see you Monday!

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[tsarina.livejournal.com]

No Monday off for me this week. :( Darn it. I have the monday afterwards, though my grandparents will be in town and they will probably want to have dinner. Don't know yet.

Life just never ceases to get stranger.

Thank you for all you said. It is very more, in the grand plan of things. Mmmm cake. Who can we call to bring us cake this time?

[seitvonzu.livejournal.com]

i finally read world of pies --it's in the juvenile section of the penn state library. isn't that odd? anyhow... it was Great. i should definately pick up my own copy.

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[tsarina.livejournal.com]

You should! Everyone needs pie recipes. Never know when you might need a pie. In fact, I'm making a chocolate pudding pie right now!

[seitvonzu.livejournal.com]

yummmmmmmmmm sounds good :)