things purchased with my discount today

[threeplusfire]

The Fionavar Tapestry series, by Guy Gavriel Kay
The World of Pies by Karen Stolz
Amerika by Franz Kafka
Lewis Carroll, Photographer, by Helmut Gernsheim
The Sexual Labyrinth of Nikolai Gogol by Simon Karlinsky
The Cat Who Went to Heaven by Elizabeth Coatsworth
The Princess and the Pea Little Golden Book
Throwing Copper, Live, cassette
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Made it to school and to work, despite the horrid traffic, idiots and the humidity that reminded me of time lived in Houston. Work was busy and even productive. I created a new display of shiny new cookbooks. I hope someone wants to make soups and cookies and Italian food. It makes me so happy when I see people buying books I've put out there.

Developed a screaming headache towards the end of the day. It's not so bad now. Pressure, tension, mostly. Dreading coming home. Thankfully the house is empty. I can't face Karen just yet. I'm still so shocked and hurt.

If she had just said something, showed some kind of sympathy instead of acting like I was a bitch for bringing it up all. I think I have badly misunderstood this person. *sigh*

Singing along quietly to my new tape. I got it mostly because of it's associations, riding the bus my freshman year of high school, listening to this tape. It's pretty good actually. You can sing along, you can drive to it. That's all that matters right now.

Next week, another doctor's appointment. I hope when I get my new insurance that I can keep my doctor. He's been my doctor for half my life, and even though I don't like him sometimes, I feel safer there. My mom trusts him, so that is something.

Comments

[jengirl.livejournal.com]

I still read your journal though I haven't posted much. *hugs*

Some people don't take in account that little things mean so much. Hopefully she'll come around but she might not. Thus, you'll need to 'rethink' your association with her. How unfortunate that you guys are roomies. It forces one to deal with the issues rather than letting them go.

Maybe you can talk to her again and let her know how much it hurt you? If she still doesn't come around, then she probably isn't worth the time.

It's amazing how selfish people are ... especially when we least expect it.

I still recall the entry from Prague of the "sunny happy days...". You should keep that in mind to get you through the hard times. :)

*hugs*

When I went to Austin last month I thought about you. :)

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[tsarina.livejournal.com]

I hope the sun comes out soon. It's been raining nonstop since Sunday, and sometimes there is a brief flash of blue sky but it doesn't last long enough.

Thank you for your words and your kindness and everything.

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[jengirl.livejournal.com]

*smiles* Your welcome. There is something in you that reminds me of another part of me that I can seem to revive. You inspire me ... in this way. Strange, I know ... But true. A sort of touching-poetic-feel-all-around-me sort of perspective on life, whether its ups or downs or whatever. I miss that ... so much. I suppose reading your thoughts makes me feel closer to what used to be.