Some days, I feel really, really old.
Mar. 23rd, 2011 12:51 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
threeplusfireToday I broke up with my therapist. That sounds so dramatic. It was very amicable and easy and something I've thought about for months. I just don't want to be in therapy right now. It feels too much like judgment and even though I know that is not what it is meant to be, it hurts. Sometimes thinking about the mess my complicated gender/body situation puts me in makes me angry.
I sort of thought I might go looking for mountain laurel bushes at a garden center, maybe swing by the Asian market. I feel a bit guilty about how much time I've dumped into DA2 recently. (Though I have been getting some chores done around the house! Sort of.. dinner cooking has definitely slacked. Tonight I swear I'm making something.)
I feel like I should play a bunch today however. Because I need to write some sappy, sweet fic about happy endings because in game those happy endings aren't truly possible. Also because life is full of difficult, awful moments. A friend of mine is in the hospital right now, and I should really write this fic so she has something to make her laugh because the alternative is being scared and sad.
Probably I should go and buy a rack of saints candles, because that is my superstitious ritual when things are hard. I burn them when things are hard.
I sort of thought I might go looking for mountain laurel bushes at a garden center, maybe swing by the Asian market. I feel a bit guilty about how much time I've dumped into DA2 recently. (Though I have been getting some chores done around the house! Sort of.. dinner cooking has definitely slacked. Tonight I swear I'm making something.)
I feel like I should play a bunch today however. Because I need to write some sappy, sweet fic about happy endings because in game those happy endings aren't truly possible. Also because life is full of difficult, awful moments. A friend of mine is in the hospital right now, and I should really write this fic so she has something to make her laugh because the alternative is being scared and sad.
Probably I should go and buy a rack of saints candles, because that is my superstitious ritual when things are hard. I burn them when things are hard.