sunset by car

[threeplusfire]

Sometimes, I find it impossible to watch the sun go down while still. Watching the sun go down makes me think of all the times I paced the driveway and the front porch outside my mother's house, waiting for someone to pick me up and take me away. It makes me restless and anxious with this need to be somewhere, anywhere other than right here. It goes away if I'm in the car, with that sense of slow/fast motion. Plus the car is always that inviolate space of freedom in America - it's where you go to be alone, or where you go to get to what you want, or to sing with your stereo or to smoke when you can't at home. So after I finished up work, I looked at the sun and left to just drive to a far away grocery store for more Red Bull I don't exactly need so much as I needed a destination. It's cool and clear after the rain, and I listened to "Not Human" by Hocico over and over. By the time I was done, the sun was gone and that edgy feeling dissipated. I drove home in the dark and thought about buying new contacts, because I can't trust myself not to lose my glasses if I go dancing.

Comments

[the-brown-bunny.livejournal.com]

i thought i'd look up the song you mentioned. it's quite good, and i'm glad you included it in the entry.

[tsarina.livejournal.com]

Oh awesome! I very recently discovered them through my DJ friend. That entire album is fantastic if you like that sort of thing.