numbness is preferable

[threeplusfire]

I deeply appreciate your comments, your emails, your messages. I'm sorry I'm not responding individually to everyone at the moment.

I am so exhausted. Last night I swung in the hammock smoking while the sunlight vanished. I felt sort of out of mind. I can't even tell you what I was thinking about. About the only time yesterday I felt anything like normal was the couple hours I spent playing Penumbra with my friend online, because I was too busy running from monster dogs and giant worms in a scary ass base way underground. Sense of direction, still shit. We exploded a lot on the jumping path carrying explosives.

I went to bed super early and slept an hour after I turned off my alarm. I just didn't want to get up and face the world. My legs are killing me from exercise, so I think today I should work on something different.

Comments

[theotoky.livejournal.com]

Not your usual musical genre, I know, but a good one to scream to: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8MdBU1wgk6c

[bodlon.livejournal.com]

I've been away from LJ for a while -- got out of the routine, never really got back into it -- and saw this. And then read back a few days.

I am thinking of you, and sorry for your loss. Be well.