I thought this is all there is, but now I know you are so much more

[threeplusfire]

Summer storm clouds roll through, scattered over the sky. Little bursts of thunder and rain come and go, bringing the sweet smell of hot concrete and water and dust. Thankfully I did my wandering earlier, in the hot still light. Investing in the armband to hold my phone so I can listen to my music is the only reason I can motivate myself to go out to exercise outside the house. The other thing I've learned is that putting on shoes makes me do things. Not just the sandals I wear most of the time, but real shoes.

Sometimes I wonder if this is just a new way to go mad, or if I am really finding my way back.

Today I severed a link to the past, getting rid of an old account. It will only be good to let go of things. Sometimes I feel a bit melancholy that I don't have a stronger tie to my past. But I feel lighter without it, and if there's anything I know about myself it is that I don't want too many things to weigh me down. Most of the things that really matter are inside me anyway.

I have bruises that I don't remember getting.

Comments

[tinywarrior.livejournal.com]

Now that my awful trial is over, let's try to lunch! Maybe early next week? I want to see your awesome hair in person!!! : )

[tsarina.livejournal.com]

I saw it in the paper!

Is Monday or Wednesday better for you?

[tinywarrior.livejournal.com]

I want to say Monday, but let me check later this week and text you. I'll be back at work day after tomorrow, so I can take a look at my calendar to be sure.

[kindness_says]

"Sometimes I wonder if this is just a new way to go mad, or if I am really finding my way back."

"It will only be good to let go of things. ... I don't want too many things to weigh me down. Most of the things that really matter are inside me anyway.

I have bruises that I don't remember getting."

Yes.