all these things that I have done
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threeplusfireDAY THIRTY: a letter to the friendliest person you knew for only one day
DAY THIRTY-ONE: whatever tickles your fancy
I had no idea what to say for day thirty because what, I don't even know. I think I'm off by a day now but fuck it. I'm not good at being a daily blogger. Though I did manage it for about two years on here once.
My job continues to bring me intense satisfaction. I like being the loyal soldier. I show up on time, I get shit done. I have no desire to be an officer or move up in truth. I'm content to just keep doing this. Probably for my bosses. If I had different bosses it might not be the same. But I will try to not stress about the future and just do this thing.
I am consistently hitting seven miles now. I managed to run several sub 11 minute miles today. I also lifted some very heavy things today and it felt good. I did not skip my crunches either. I feel virtuous. Doing all this crazy hard stuff calms the rage and the incessant buzz of my thoughts. For the first time I'm glad I stopped smoking as I'm paying a lot of attention to my breath and my heart rate as I run. Mostly I just miss the pleasure of smoking but I'm finally able to acknowledge it might be a good trade to forgo that.
Tomorrow I have an appointment to talk to a man about lasers. Specifically those lasers they stick on your eyes so you can give up contacts and glasses forever. When I got contacts, the year after the divorce, it was this absurd decision to do something that scared me. This feels similar. There's vanity to it, though I probably look cuter in my glasses than I do without them. But I'm so sick of wearing them. I'm sick of having blackheads on the side of my nose, of having to take them off at the gym because I sweat so much, sick of having to carry glasses and sunglasses or just not being able to wear sunglasses. I also want to be able to cram my head in that virtual reality headset without fuss. I'm super sick of contacts. I can't wear them for more than six to eight hours without discomfort. I just want to wear my absurd KPOP style sunglasses while I drive, and play video games.
DAY ONE: introduce yourself / list your likes and dislikes
DAY TWO: make a bullet list of everything that happened in your day
DAY THREE: your favorite movie
DAY FOUR: a photo of you taken over ten years ago
DAY FIVE: a letter to your crush
DAY SIX: list what you ate today
DAY SEVEN: a youtube video that you find funny
DAY EIGHT: a photo of you taken recently
DAY NINE: list some of your favorite websites
DAY TEN: a letter to the person you hate the most or caused you a lot of pain
DAY ELEVEN: share your favorite recipe
DAY TWELVE: we want to see your teeth today
DAY THIRTEEN: whatever tickles your fancy
DAY FOURTEEN: a song from your childhood
DAY FIFTEEN: a letter to someone you wish you could meet
DAY SIXTEEN: provide pictures of 5 celebrity crushes
DAY SEVENTEEN: a photo that makes you sad
DAY EIGHTEEN: set or share a goal
DAY NINETEEN: whatever tickles your fancy
DAY TWENTY: a letter to someone that changed your life
DAY TWENTY-ONE: your favorite television program
DAY TWENTY-TWO: a photo that makes you happy
DAY TWENTY-THREE: share one of your current favorite tunes
DAY TWENTY-FOUR: a letter to yourself a year ago
DAY TWENTY-FIVE: a letter to someone you judged by their first impression
DAY TWENTY-SIX: favorite books
DAY TWENTY-SEVEN: a talent of yours
DAY TWENTY-EIGHT: favorite places to shop
DAY TWENTY-NINE: provide the hex code of your favorite color
DAY THIRTY-TWO: a photo you took
DAY THIRTY-THREE: what you're craving right now
DAY THIRTY-FOUR: your favorite quote
DAY THIRTY-FIVE: a letter to an ex
DAY THIRTY-SIX: some hobbies of yours
DAY THIRTY-SEVEN: a song that you like to dance to
DAY THIRTY-EIGHT: a photo of your parent(s)
DAY THIRTY-NINE: zodiac sign and do you think it fits your personality
DAY FORTY: a letter to a deceased person you wish you could talk to
DAY FORTY-ONE: whatever tickles your fancy
DAY FORTY-TWO: bad habit(s) you have
DAY FORTY-THREE: a picture of your favorite place in the world
DAY FORTY-FOUR: something that fascinates you and why
DAY FORTY-FIVE: whatever tickles your fancy
DAY FORTY-SIX: photos of personal things in your life (pets, family, house, etc.)
DAY FORTY-SEVEN: birthday wish list
DAY FORTY-EIGHT: a photo of you right now
DAY FORTY-NINE: hopes, dreams and plans for the next 365 days
DAY FIFTY: a letter to your reflection in the mirror
DAY THIRTY-ONE: whatever tickles your fancy
I had no idea what to say for day thirty because what, I don't even know. I think I'm off by a day now but fuck it. I'm not good at being a daily blogger. Though I did manage it for about two years on here once.
My job continues to bring me intense satisfaction. I like being the loyal soldier. I show up on time, I get shit done. I have no desire to be an officer or move up in truth. I'm content to just keep doing this. Probably for my bosses. If I had different bosses it might not be the same. But I will try to not stress about the future and just do this thing.
I am consistently hitting seven miles now. I managed to run several sub 11 minute miles today. I also lifted some very heavy things today and it felt good. I did not skip my crunches either. I feel virtuous. Doing all this crazy hard stuff calms the rage and the incessant buzz of my thoughts. For the first time I'm glad I stopped smoking as I'm paying a lot of attention to my breath and my heart rate as I run. Mostly I just miss the pleasure of smoking but I'm finally able to acknowledge it might be a good trade to forgo that.
Tomorrow I have an appointment to talk to a man about lasers. Specifically those lasers they stick on your eyes so you can give up contacts and glasses forever. When I got contacts, the year after the divorce, it was this absurd decision to do something that scared me. This feels similar. There's vanity to it, though I probably look cuter in my glasses than I do without them. But I'm so sick of wearing them. I'm sick of having blackheads on the side of my nose, of having to take them off at the gym because I sweat so much, sick of having to carry glasses and sunglasses or just not being able to wear sunglasses. I also want to be able to cram my head in that virtual reality headset without fuss. I'm super sick of contacts. I can't wear them for more than six to eight hours without discomfort. I just want to wear my absurd KPOP style sunglasses while I drive, and play video games.
DAY ONE: introduce yourself / list your likes and dislikes
DAY TWO: make a bullet list of everything that happened in your day
DAY THREE: your favorite movie
DAY FOUR: a photo of you taken over ten years ago
DAY FIVE: a letter to your crush
DAY SIX: list what you ate today
DAY SEVEN: a youtube video that you find funny
DAY EIGHT: a photo of you taken recently
DAY NINE: list some of your favorite websites
DAY TEN: a letter to the person you hate the most or caused you a lot of pain
DAY ELEVEN: share your favorite recipe
DAY TWELVE: we want to see your teeth today
DAY THIRTEEN: whatever tickles your fancy
DAY FOURTEEN: a song from your childhood
DAY FIFTEEN: a letter to someone you wish you could meet
DAY SIXTEEN: provide pictures of 5 celebrity crushes
DAY SEVENTEEN: a photo that makes you sad
DAY EIGHTEEN: set or share a goal
DAY NINETEEN: whatever tickles your fancy
DAY TWENTY: a letter to someone that changed your life
DAY TWENTY-ONE: your favorite television program
DAY TWENTY-TWO: a photo that makes you happy
DAY TWENTY-THREE: share one of your current favorite tunes
DAY TWENTY-FOUR: a letter to yourself a year ago
DAY TWENTY-FIVE: a letter to someone you judged by their first impression
DAY TWENTY-SIX: favorite books
DAY TWENTY-SEVEN: a talent of yours
DAY TWENTY-EIGHT: favorite places to shop
DAY TWENTY-NINE: provide the hex code of your favorite color
DAY THIRTY-TWO: a photo you took
DAY THIRTY-THREE: what you're craving right now
DAY THIRTY-FOUR: your favorite quote
DAY THIRTY-FIVE: a letter to an ex
DAY THIRTY-SIX: some hobbies of yours
DAY THIRTY-SEVEN: a song that you like to dance to
DAY THIRTY-EIGHT: a photo of your parent(s)
DAY THIRTY-NINE: zodiac sign and do you think it fits your personality
DAY FORTY: a letter to a deceased person you wish you could talk to
DAY FORTY-ONE: whatever tickles your fancy
DAY FORTY-TWO: bad habit(s) you have
DAY FORTY-THREE: a picture of your favorite place in the world
DAY FORTY-FOUR: something that fascinates you and why
DAY FORTY-FIVE: whatever tickles your fancy
DAY FORTY-SIX: photos of personal things in your life (pets, family, house, etc.)
DAY FORTY-SEVEN: birthday wish list
DAY FORTY-EIGHT: a photo of you right now
DAY FORTY-NINE: hopes, dreams and plans for the next 365 days
DAY FIFTY: a letter to your reflection in the mirror