winter light

Washed clean blue sky, and I want to leave work to change clothes and dash through the sunshine lighter than thought or sound. It's gorgeous out there.

Spoke to C. on the phone last night, we've been playing phone tag for days. It's funny, when the ice storm destroyed the power lines, and I tried to restart my answering machine the tape started spinning madly. When I pressed PLAY I heard a recorded phone conversation from my freshman year of high school, '94 or '95, between C. and myself. I can't wait to see him again.

Something inspired by Cate. A bit of reflection on my year.

Best Present I Recieved: My grandparents paying half my tuition for the spring

Best Present I gave: Taking Karen out to a fancy dinner

Favorite Book Read This Year: The Life of Insects by Victor Pelevin

Accomplishment: Learning to live on my own

Rediscovery: The absolute joy in being myself

Daily Joys: reading books, breathing, the sky

Most Interesting Classes: Major Novels of Dostoevsky, Czech language

New Friends: Karen & Melynda, my slightly insane adorable co-conspirators

Saddest Moment: Learning my grandfather has Parkinsons, realizing my parents & grandparents are getting older

Still Bothers Me: The utter ignorance of some people

New Skills: Cross stitch, Czech

Still Need To: Improve my Russian, learn more Czech, get to Prague

For the first time in so many years, I'm looking forward to celebrating New Year's day. It may help that I have quite a fabulous date but I digress... actually I am enjoying living, enjoying being me. I'm happy. God, it's so strange to say that. I'm happy.

Wishing everyone out there happiness today, and for the year to come.

the words go down on paper

I've got that voice screaming in my head and I know I've got to let go let it go girl you know this is going to be hard girl let's go

He smiles at me, and I just don't know what to say.

"Old enough to know," he observed, his eyes still on me.

We are walking, crossing the stone and grass between the buildings, our voices carried away by the air.

streetlights over my hands on my knees, like the movie I could not see the car on the street moving silently and we didn't say a word to each other the whole time

go

go run until the sun sets down behind the oaks run hands out arms moving step in sync with the pounding heart feet on the pavement down the hill across the street keep going run keep going you can't catch me twilight racing down