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GREETINGS Gemini

This isn't the time to walk around with a closed mind, Gemini. Be open to new alliances and their possibilities. However, don't let your version of the future blind you to the tangible
state of the present. Who you are is more important than what you can do for someone. If you lose sight of that simple fact, all may be lost. Tonight, don't be afraid to let other people help you in the areas of your life that need a little boost.

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Where is my sunshine? So much grey, that I just want to crack the sky. Does everything make sense now? Sometimes I just don't know what to say, and I try too hard to send myself out across the wire, walking too slowly to ever get to the other side. I don't know where we are.

my hallucinations are normally visual ones

Maybe if I start seeing a psychologist, I can get a note excusing me from taking any more Area C science classes. Astronomy just induces panic attacks when the professor talks about the scale and the origins of the universe. When he says the universe has only been around so long, I wonder "What was there before?" and down I go.

So much homework. Government to read, astronomy problems to do, and paragraph upon paragraph to write. I'm so tired, watching the grey sky hang there. Today I've eaten a sandwich, a bowl of cereal and two breakfast tacos without satisfaction. It's just this restless feeling I can't shake. Maybe I should get back out of the apartment. Ignoring it all won't make it go away I know, but I just want out of here, out of this skin, out of everything so badly. I hear Mark singing this song and Bill's keyboard and Casey's guitar, and I just want out of my head, out of the dark. The sound crashes down waves and waves and a life I left behind and I do not want to be here now sitting still. Outside outside outside I have to get outside into the light.