(no subject)

I had a good dream for once. I was talking with Professor P. and walking around these outdoor bookshelves filled with glass curios and old Czech books and newspapers from major cities around the world. We sat on the edge of this blue pond lined with white tile, along with some other people in the Prague class. Mike had his legs in the water, and I was watching a big trout swim past. Professor P. somehow scooped these tiny black and white shells out of the pond and threw them to us. It sounds strange but felt so peaceful and wonderful. I wanted to stay there and not wake up this morning.

It's grey outside again. I wonder how often my mood is affected by the weather. Probably not enough vitamin D. I feel plant-like, stretching my arms up to the sun. One day at the pool was enough to start the tan line. I've always had my father's skin. Forgot to note yesterday that those blue flowers I like so much seem to come in all kinds of colors.

Time to find a way to school inbetween the clouds.

the day in words

I want Chinese food in a terrible way. Which is not good for many reasons. Mostly because my car is broken and I can not go get Chinese food. Because I have no idea how much it will cost to fix the car tomorrow, so I really shouldn't drop money on Chinese take-out. The delivery wants a minimum $15 order, which would be a lot of food for just me. I should just make a grilled cheese sandwich instead. I crave seasame chicken with broccoli and rice though.

Yes the car is broken again. The same problem I was having before we replaced all my spark plugs. *sigh* I just loathe it when the car breaks down. Granted it is an older car, and things wear out, etc, etc. But it just frustrates me out of all reason when I feel like my independence is being compromised in some way. I'm going to have to ask my father to take me from the university to my mechanic tomorrow afternoon.

I'm taking Karen's cat to the vet to be fixed and given her shots. Because I can't stand it when people aren't repsonsible with their pets and I'm not going to live with an animal that isn't current on it's rabies shots. I understand that Karen doesn't have a lot of money, but at the same time I think "well you could not go out to eat and you could forgo a new piercing and then you would have the money to pay for this." I don't know. I probably shouldn't judge so harshly. I was raised with the idea that you take care of your animals, you keep them current on their shots, and you don't skimp on their medical care. If you care and you're responsible you do that kind of thing. So I will just not argue with her about it and take care of it myself.

TWC doesn't want to give me unemployement because I won't drop out of school for a job. Well, that is just wonderful. Thanks for your time. What the hell kind of thing is that to say? To encourage me to drop out to work some menial office job during the day where I wouldn't learn and I would feel terrible about myself? Absolutely not. Dropping out is not an option. I refuse to drop out of school just because I don't have any money. I will find some way to keep everything together for the next couple of months. Somehow. Somehow.

Mm hunger. Tomorrow Patrick will be back in town. China has our soldiers somewhere. It disgusts me that Bush can't speak. I need to clean my apartment. Only a few more weeks til I move and I'm not ready. Panic rises at the thought. I have homework I should be doing. I will talk to you later.

listing

Things that must be done:
Get up at 6:45am and call tow truck
Make it to school for Czech test
Get back to my mechanic and hope the car is fixable
Write paper on Novak book for the Prague class
Get Karen's cat and take it to the clinic
Get to school for astronomy review and turn in Czech paper
Pick up Karen's cat from the clinic
Sign apartment lease
Take astronomy exam

Things I would like to do but I don't know when:
Study for Czech test
Study for astronomy test
Read for government
Have coffee with Warhol
Have dinner with Patrick
Clean my apartment
Sleep

Can you tell I'm stressed about the allocation of time? It should be so simple for me at this point, but no.