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Watched a very insane Czech New Wave movie, took my last scantron test ever in class, wrote four pages of my paper, and talked a lot. A strange, strange day. At least we drank good red wine.

invitation

Once again, party for tomas mika and cast at 7pm this saturday at my
place, 3112B Wheeler street. See below for directions. I live behind
the big house in an overpriced garage apartment. Just follow the
sidewalk on around until you see skippy the cat.

Hahahah. God I love my department.
The semester is almost over. Damn.

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Dreamed about driving, out to Lago Vista and Killeen, far down the highways. I had another journalism job, writing book reviews. I went back to Prague, and it was so happy.

I'm surprised that I didn't have nightmares after last night's movie.
I think I'll go swimming before I work on my paper some more.

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Dying my hair blue black again, starry shimmering night sky colors. When I got it cut so short, it took out almost all of the dye parts. After looking at my natural hait color for a couple weeks, I decided that I really didn't care for it after all. Following another fine family tradition, I will now color my hair til the grave.

I have fajita things, and I'm wondering if we have any charcoal because I would like to cook the meat outside. Maybe Sunday? Drove with the window down, listening to Jane's Addiction, which has always sounded like summer to me.

going home

Odd how everything feels so final. It hit me hard in the car tonight, approaching that dreaded overpass of so many nights, nightmares and and drives. Strange too how the sad songs don't pain me right now. I have to wonder how solid this burgeoning sense of self assurance will end up.

Because right now, I am happy. Despite still loathing my physical form for what it can't give me, and struggling to be better/faster/stronger than the rest of the world. So many things seem to be resolving themselves in ways a year ago I wouldn't have recognized.

Maybe it's knowing someone, more than one really, that is much like myself. I am finding connections I despaired of existing. A few in paticular.

Tomorrow is my last class at the university. My last.