I know

One might think I would know that drinking on an empty stomach is not the best idea in the world. Especially drinking cheap vodka on an empty stomach. I lost very badly at cards. Indeed, even in the first round when I was still sober. I think I now hold the high score record, again.

It seems when I am drunk, I have this compulsion to wind up in the shower. And that is where I woke up at 5am, in the shower, which had finally gotten cold. Despite all this, I still didn't sleep much past 9am. Who needs modafinil when you can just alter your own sleep cycle so much?

Should do some cleaning, but frankly I'm not inspired. I'm voracious, but food requires putting on something other than my nightgown and leaving the house.

the last star of morning

We're watching The Last Unicorn, one of my favorite movies ever. It has a peculiar grace, and I cry every single time I watch it. Amalthea was the first name I used when I started getting online, so long ago. I love Molly. And that one line, every single time.

"Even if I were blind, I would know who you are."

(no subject)

There's a broken-winged bluejay outside. I have watched him for weeks, hopping, climbing the trees. I am not sure why I am compelled to note its presence in my life.

Many things undone. Much packing that I still need to do. So many things left unsaid, left behind.