french toast and migas

Melynda and I had a lovely morning yesterday, breakfast at Kerbey Lane and coffee, and talking about so many things. I wish I could have run off to Houston with her. It would be so much fun.

But alas, here I am. Working tonight, and then the relative freedom of the weekend. I have something like eighty six email messages to get through, spread across three of my seven email accounts. God lord. I really should consolidate all this stuff, but that requires getting another email address. Bah. At least it's mostly fun stuff.

04/18/2003 GREETINGS Gemini

You may feel like you want to keep going, but enough is enough. It is
necessary for you to find your own stopping point before you hit the
wall. Face it, Gemini -- there are no easy endings right now. Your
commitments could suck you in far deeper than you ever intended to
go. Don't be afraid to admit that you can't or won't handle a
difficult situation. When making an important choice, your pride
should not be a factor in your decisions.

I should write about eight hundred things, but my mind just isn't there. Like how I'm going to be in New York again soon and I've been looking forward to it for months and months, and when I come back I will probably end up buying another plane ticket just because it makes me a little saner to have something to look forward to these days. Being out of school has depressed me far more than I first imagined. I hung my poster up on the wall. I did more certs than half the bloody night shift and I want my prize damn it. My friend is probably getting her picture taken right now, and I can't wait to see them. I want brunch.

The weather is cloudy and weird, and I feel cloudy and weird, and these ordinary voices are vocal today, in terms of what they want.

my hair looks like his

I can't stress enough how beautiful the opening of Titus is, with that blue cast to the stones of the arena, Anthony Hopkins and his brilliant voice, the movements of the soldiers, and that strange silent young boy. If I were making movies, that's the kind of thing I should love to make.

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The dinner and death at the end of the film is also an incredibly well choreographed thing. When Saturnine runs across the table top, the camera and the music and the color of it all is incredible.

I should read Shakespeare again, sit down and read it for the majesty of the work instead of with the goal of yanking a paper topic out of a scene or a theme. It's been a very long time really.

Something else I want to read again is Antigone. The movements of Titus remind of a production I saw years ago during One Act competitions that was rather stark and strange. They had a big chorus carrying staffs with skulls, and all scene switches were carried out under red lights.

I need to make new icons. Still waiting for inspiration.