the view from here

Life is really weird sometimes. I was just reading through some old journal entries and wondering how I have from there to here. Reflection doesn't suit me I think, because I tend to arrive at these insights in flashpoints, instead of through methodical meditation. I wonder how I ever got to be so fucked up, or how I ever made it away from there. Because while I know it happened, I jsut couldn't tell you how I pulled it off.