the view from here

[threeplusfire]

Life is really weird sometimes. I was just reading through some old journal entries and wondering how I have from there to here. Reflection doesn't suit me I think, because I tend to arrive at these insights in flashpoints, instead of through methodical meditation. I wonder how I ever got to be so fucked up, or how I ever made it away from there. Because while I know it happened, I jsut couldn't tell you how I pulled it off.

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[roadnotes.livejournal.com]

Wait ten years, and some of the routes of escape will be clearer -- and some will still be "How the hell did I pull that off? Was it a good fairy kicking me in the butt?"

Not everyone advances through methodical meditation and reflection. Ad not even the people who do that do it all the time. (There's also some rationalization after the fact that goes on, she said, staring at the ceiling.)

[tsarina.livejournal.com]

I can see that. Makes sense. My hindsight is brilliant.

I thought of you because I found the most appalling paperback ever. It's called Gossamer Axe. Ever seen it?

[lyeta.livejournal.com]

Amanda!
How I've missed you! I now have the internet again and will soon be in touch with you!
Love
Samantha

[evilgeniuskatie.livejournal.com]

I'm betting you pulled it off with a slick move and a high step. And you don't strike me as fucked up. ~KMK

[tsarina.livejournal.com]

Sometimes there were indeed some pretty slick moves. ;)

But I used to be so different, and it's really obvious when you get back into the earlier journal entries I think. I was a mess for several years, due to some hideous things happening to me in my teens. But now, it kinda feels as if I have survived in a good way.