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I'm feeling better today, despite being woken from sound dreaming by wretched cramps. Oh the injustice of being a girl. At least a package arrived full of chocolates and cookies a little dog and a photograph for my desk. Little things, I am reminded, and I really should mail about seven packages now. Not to mention my thank you notes.

They sent us home at 9pm last night, which was unusual and weird. But there was no work at all, anywhere. Typical of my office, the floor manager sent out an email at 6pm outlining when and who could go. Our immediate superiors, the leads, ran around like headless chickens pretending they knew nothing. It was superbly annoying.

So we went to Blockbuster, avoided the loud and annoying baglady wearing a surgical mask, and pondered movies. I saw The Reflecting Skin, which I might have to watch sometime only because it sounds so superbly creepy. That, and I want to know why Lindsay Duncan and Viggo Mortensen are in it. We picked up a copy of From Hell because I never saw it in the theater. I like Moore's graphic novel so it's worth a shot.

Speaking of films and comics, it's been far too long since I last saw Tank Girl. I was fifteen when it was in the theaters and I think James & I saw it at least eight times. Had a great soundtrack too, and it was fun. Any movie that casts Ice T, Lori Petty, Iggy Pop and Malcolm McDowell can't help but be bizarre. Especially if you cast Ice T as a giant kangaroo man.

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Reading back over my writing frequently causes me to wince at my own pretentious ramblings. Yet sometimes, it is incredibly good. Both relief and happiness to know this.

Strange to see how far I've travelled on these roads, both how much and how little has changed. Some things are constant, like the Texas sky and the moon, which I write about quite often. Some things have changed oh so much. Last year I was still learning how to be alone, and struggling with that knowledge. Now I will never really be alone again.

Even though we had a raging argument yesterday where I behaved badly and broke two glasses, it is alright. These things are more temporal than I imagined. I don't carry the same anger around inside, the way that I used to do. That fact is telling, and so different from all my other relationships. I know that when it ends, it ends and we still love each other.

work is so fun

Actually the redeeming features of work tonight would be the free pizza, and winning a $25 gift card to Texas Land & Cattle. I was just ranting earlier about how much I want a steak. Go me. Anyhow, we're allowed to start leaving at 10pm, but I'm thinking I should try to stick it out til midnight just because we need the money. I'd rather go home and watch the UT game though.

( End of the year survey hoopla, because I'm dreadfully bored )