revelation

I am so unbearably heartbroken and angry right now. The important point being is that all extra expenses are curtailed until further notice and I don't think I'll be going to Jersey and New York anytime soon. A full explanation to affected parties will be forthcoming when I'm not so angry I could spit nails.

I'm sorry.

the situation at hand

Last night was weird. I helped take care of drunk people, including our hostess who fell into the shower. All in all not a bad little party. I was in a horrible mood, after the last hour of work. One of my moronic coworkers was having a very loud and inappropriate conversation in the middle of the office about how gay people go to hell. I spoke to my supervisor, and he was quite understanding about my distress. Cowboy has promised to take the situation in hand and try to prevent any repeats.

Anyhow, after the party I started talking to Alan about the license problem. I learned that he may have unpaid tickets that will cost a large chunk of money. Right now we don't know, but this will be cleared up on Monday. There is also a large debt to the power company that needs to be taken care of as soon as we can. It's an old thing, which was not entirely under his control. We're not in any danger of losing power or anything like that. I just don't want to have the specter of debt over our heads.

Debt is a personal war with me. I have made it through college, three vehicles and many upheavals without acquiring any debt at all. I take enormous pride in this. So I am understandably anxious about clearing my husbands accounts. It's something we will work out together.

The upshot of this would be that all travel and large purchases have been cancelled for the time being. I can't make plans until I know what needs to be paid, and what our payments plans will look like. At the moment, I think I have enough money in the bank to clear a large portion of this, but I don't want to leave us completely flat broke.

I'm hurt by this, mostly because I had no idea until last night. This is an issue my husband and I must also work out. Understandably I am upset because I feel like I've had something taken away. This trip was a happy goal to work towards, and was meant to help alleviate my recent unhappiness. I just don't know what to say.

I want to thank everyone who has commented and expressed their concerns. I'm okay right now, just a bit depressed. It will get better once more details are set into place. But thank you all, for taking the time to click a comment link and say a few words. It helps, and reminds me that I have many friends both in the waking world and the wired.

hazelnut soda

Wireless at Metro is grand. A dream come true, really, after all these years. It would be even better if they would put on better music, and the internet would entertain me more. I never want to hear that crappy cover of Sweet Child of Mine again thank you emo boy rock band. I brush off everyone's complaints about the chairs, but today they are extra uncomfortable. I'll attribute that to a poor few hours of sleep on the couch last night.

Melynda and I went out for breakfast at Kerbey Lane, and then off for a little retail therapy and errands. I justified my purchases at Foleys because I had the gift card and I needed clothes for yoga. Managed to find the exact sports bra Trisha recommended to me, the Champion model with the zipper front. It is remarkably comfortable. Less justifiable was the new Castlevania game, Lament of Innocence. But the price had dropped $20, I wanted it and I needed something this morning to cheer me up a little. If it bothers me too much, I'll return it.

Thought about joining the theatrical muse fun, but my muses are already in play. Bugger.

I've been thinking about my White Wolf character a lot lately, and I would like to work with her more. Sadly, I think our gaming group is falling apart and I don't have another space for her right now. Hopefully Jason will give me back the character sheet soon so I can refresh my memory on her stats. I think she's really a great character, and I'll probably settle down to write some brief fiction about her.

Watching people here is usually entertaining for one reason or another. It's pretty quiet early on a Saturday night. Two tables away I can see Al's high school girlfriend. I suppose she will graduate this year and we can stop ragging so hard on him for dating underage girls. Melynda is acros the table from me typing away, and Gene is down the room coding a project. Alan's at home playing Day of Defeat I imagine. What the rest of my world is doing, I don't know. Tell me.