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I feel just wretched. I've been taking different sinus meds all weekend to keep breathing, and now some of it seems to be in my chest. I hate the coughing. It all makes me irritable and freaked out. I hate being sick.

Today is one of those days where I can't seem to concentrate on anything.

On the BPAL forum, someone set up a writing swap of sorts. Two people get together, pick a setting and characters and then write letters back and forth as those characters. The idea being you don't share your idea of the plot with the other person, and it just sort of grows with the interaction. It sounds like fun, and focused in a way that appeals to me. The last time I wrote any number of real letters was years ago. I bought a notebook and a new pen. If nothing else, it will get my hand exercised and entertain me.

I'm eight kinds of stressed about money and living and everything because of the dental thing. The amount of money I'm going to spend on that frankly horrifies me even though I know it is a necessary health fix. But still.

Did part of the grocery shopping at Whole Foods today. It really just makes sense to go there for meat, fish and produce because it's all way better than any other large grocery store and it's really not too much more expensive. I'll still need HEB for dishwashing detergent and gatorade. But I love being able to find fresh, real fruit. The tuna steaks they had in the fish case looked so divine and tasty, I'm regretting not buying some of those.

At leas the weather outside is pretty. Windy and cool and bright. I want to lay in the sun and soak it up like a lizard.

shiny objects in space

Okay, I have no business buying things really. Especially not given how stressed I am about money. But whatever. I like soap, I like shiny objects. I rationalize some of it as a mental health expense. I'm still putting away a good chunk of change into my savings account and a money market fund every month. Plus my job takes a big chunk for retirement.

I can't go a day without staring at Wearable Sculpture. Seriously beautiful things. In fact, the cashier at Whole Foods loved my custom necklace so much that I gave her one of Kythryne's cards. (I keep them in my purse all the time these days.) Right now I'm in love with Sun #1 because it just looks like it would glow in the light. Most of the things I own, aside from my custom piece, are fairly simple. I'm just itching to order a more complicated pendant with different stones or something. Sail Across the Stars #2 is perfect and makes me wish I had that money to spend.

To compromise, I signed myself up for the earring club. I like earrings. I could use some more.