morning

It's a really lovely day, for the end of the year. I wish I could be more active, maybe clean the house. This point of recovery is the worst because I don't really hurt any more but if I do something like bend at the waist or spend too much time sitting then I ache. Walking to the mail box is still tiring. I'm so, so very ready to be done with this part.

in the golden afternoon

I'm totally stealing the format of this from bodlon because I like it better than most end of the year quizzes.

Five things that were terrible about this year:
- My broken uterus and the ensuing havoc it wreaked.
- Awkward and awful interpersonal communication failures.
- A large beetle that caused in several hundred dollars of car repair.
- Going to therapy and realizing how awful some things really were.
- The TSA making it impossible for me to fly.

Ten things that were good about this year:
- Getting my uterus removed.
- Seeing one of my oldest friends again for the first time in more than a decade.
- Hearing from another old friend and knowing he is happy.
- Going to therapy and realizing I am not a bad, crazy person.
- Coming out of the closet about my messy, incomplete gender identity thing.
- Shaving my head.
- Seeing Racheline again after too long and going to Dragon*con.
- My eternally patient spouse and our talks before bed, and the bedtime stories.
- Drafthouse shows of incomparable awesome, like seeing Christopher Lloyd get out of a Delorean.
- Eating dinner at Wink for my 30th birthday.

Five things I want to do in 2011:
- Communicate better, everywhere.
- Go somewhere new, preferably without flying.
- Be somewhat healthier, physically and mentally.
- Write more fiction and finish something for once.
- Eat at Wink again.

That is the closest I can get to writing any sort of year end summary.

Booklist 2010

Fiction:
1. Futures: Four Novellas by Peter Hamilton, Stephen Baxter, Paul McCauley, Ian McDonald
2. The Hours by Michael Cunningham
3. By Blood We Live edited by John Joseph Adams
4. Wastelands edited by John Joseph Adams
5. The Laws of Evening by Mary Yukari Waters
6. Free Food For Millionaires by Min Jin Lee
7. The Courage Consort by Michael Faber
8. Octopussy & The Living Daylights by Ian Fleming
9. The Crimson Petal and the White by Michael Faber
10. Heart Shaped Box by Joe Hill
11. Waking the Moon by Elizabeth Hand
12. Black Light by Elizabeth Hand
13. The Glimmering by Elizabeth Hand
14. Splitting by Faye Weldon
15. The Vampire Tapestry by Suzy McKee Charnas
16. The Peaceable Kingdom by Francine Prose
17. Demonology by Rick Moody
18. Grey by Jon Armstrong
19. Dangerous Laughter by Steven Millhauser
20. Big Cats by Holiday Reinhorn
21. In the Penny Arcade by Steven Millhauser
22. Guided Tours of Hell by Francine Prose
23. Puffball by Fay Weldon
24. Saffron and Brimstone by Elizabeth Hand
25. Martin Dressler by Steven Millhauser
26. Edwin Mullhouse - The Life and Death of an American Writer 1943-1954 by Jeffrey Cartwright by Steven Millhauser
27. The Hunger Games by Suzanne Collins
28. The New Dead edited by Christopher Golden
29. The Left Hand of God by Paul Hoffman
30. The Bulgari Connection by Fay Weldon
31. Casual by Oksana Robski
32. Dreams of My Russian Summers by Andrei Makine
33. Then We Came To The End by Joshua Ferris
34. The Stepford Wives by Ira Levin
35. The Stolen Throne by David Gaider
36. The Calling by David Gaider
37. The Scandal of the Season by Sophie Gee
38. Mortal Love by Elizabeth Hand
39. The Knife Thrower by Steven Millhauser
40. Sanderlings by Caitlin Kiernan
41. Twilight Sleep by Edith Wharton
42. Summer by Edith Wharton
43. Pohl Stars by Frederik Pohl
44. Sacred Country by Rose Tremain
45. The Ammonite Violin by Caitlin Kiernan
46. Dust by Joan Frances Turner
47. Tales from Jabba's Palace edited by Kevin J. Anderson
48. Ethan Frome by Edith Wharton
49. Tales from Mos Eisley Cantina edited by Kevin J. Anderson
50. Tales of the Bounty Hunters edited by Kevin J. Anderson
51. The Mother's Recompense by Edith Wharton
51. Twin Shadowed Knight by Hideyuki Kikuchi
52. Thicker Than Water by Kathryn Harrison
53. Middlesex by Jeffrey Eugenides
54. The Boleyn Inheritance by Philippa Gregory
55. Lavinia by Ursula K. LeGuin
56. Burning Chrome by William Gibson
57. Neuromancer by William Gibson
58. A Thousand Years of Good Prayers by Yiyun Lee
59. The Difference Engine by William Gibson & Bruce Sterling
60. Count Zero by William Gibson
61. Mona Lisa Overdrive by William Gibson
62. Questionable Content Volume 1 by Jeph Jacques


Nonfiction:
1. The Long Hard Road Out of Hell by Marilyn Manson with Neil Strauss
2. Cooking for Kings: The Life of Antonin Careme, the First Celebrity Chef by Ian Kelly
3. Freakonomics: A Rogue Economist Explores the Hidden Side of Everything by Steven D. Levitt & Stephen J. Dubner
4. SuperFreakonomics: Global Cooling, Patriotic Prostitutes, and Why Suicide Bombers Should Buy Life Insurance by Steven D. Levitt & Stephen J. Dubner
5. Tokyo Vice: An American Reporter on the Police Beat in Japan by Jake Adelstein
6. W.A.R. - The Unauthorized Biography of W. Axl Rose by Mick Wall
7. Homeward Bound: American Families in the Cold War by Elaine Taylor May
8. Something from the Oven: Reinventing Dinner in 1950s America by Laura Shapiro
9. The 1950s Home by Sophie Leighton
10. The Possessed: Adventures with Russian Books and People Who Read Them by Elif Batuman
11. Driving With Dead People by Monica Holloway
12. American Eve: Evelyn Nesbit, Stanford White, The Birth of the "It" Girl and the Crime of the Century by Paula Uruburu
13. Ham Biscuits, Hostess Gowns and Other Southern Specialties by Julia Reed
14. Medium Raw by Anthony Bourdain
15. The Monster of Florence: A True Story by Douglas Preston and Mario Spezi
16. The Mother Knot by Kathryn Harrison
17. Gender Outlaws: the Next Generation edited by Kate Bornstein and S. Bear Bergman
18. The Gift of Fear by Gavin de Becker
19. Gunn's Golden Rules: Life's Little Lessons for Making It Work by Tim Gunn
20. I'm Looking Through You: Growing Up Haunted by Jennifer Finney Boylan
21. Geisha, A Life by Mineko Iwasaki with Rande Brown
22. My Life in France by Julia Child with Alex Prud'homme
23. Inside the Aquarium: The Making of a Top Soviet Spy by Viktor Suvorov