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Right as I left the store with my final morning errand complete, the sky opened up with rain. Glorious, chilly rain. I have not enjoyed being soaked so much in ages. I'm just listening to it now, thinking about how lovely it is to enjoy the grey sky for awhile longer.

Mailed a birthday present or two to England this morning to my best gamer friend. (Please don't let the post lose this one.) Picked up a couple things from the grocery store. Listened to the guys at checkout talk about how much Diablo they played before they came to work this morning. LOL, Diablo madness.

I have these superfine blonde hairs on my jaw line now that I never had before. I'm not really sure when that started happening but alright.

sunset by car

Sometimes, I find it impossible to watch the sun go down while still. Watching the sun go down makes me think of all the times I paced the driveway and the front porch outside my mother's house, waiting for someone to pick me up and take me away. It makes me restless and anxious with this need to be somewhere, anywhere other than right here. It goes away if I'm in the car, with that sense of slow/fast motion. Plus the car is always that inviolate space of freedom in America - it's where you go to be alone, or where you go to get to what you want, or to sing with your stereo or to smoke when you can't at home. So after I finished up work, I looked at the sun and left to just drive to a far away grocery store for more Red Bull I don't exactly need so much as I needed a destination. It's cool and clear after the rain, and I listened to "Not Human" by Hocico over and over. By the time I was done, the sun was gone and that edgy feeling dissipated. I drove home in the dark and thought about buying new contacts, because I can't trust myself not to lose my glasses if I go dancing.