it's been one of those days

[threeplusfire]

This morning involved one of the most unpleasant and humiliating doctor visits of my life. (Even worse than the year I had the serious kidney infection and the doctor said, "well it usually doesn't kill people" and blamed it on my deviant sex habits) Thankfully they decided not to do an ultrasound, that it wasn't cancer and I should just be kind to my stomach for some time.

This afternoon I wrote something that was unbelievably beautiful, wrenching and perfect. Then my computer sucked the file up into a void. No amount of searching has restored it to me, and I'm in despair. I cried tonight in Metro, even, for a moment of truth lost to the gods in the machine.

Drove down to Metro, for a card game and some quiet time. Gene went home early to reprogram the world, and I decided a short time later to go buy some hair dye. Dyeing my hair always cheers me up, and restores my self confidence. When I got to my car, I saw the dim glow of my head lights, and yes, my engine wouldn't turn. I went back to Metro and Kelly gave me a hazelnut soda to ease the pain of this ridiculous day. I had to call Gene, who gracefully came back to save the day. He didn't even make too much fun of me.

The sky was a blend of purples and violets, with layers of clouds moving about, and was lovely enough to make me smile a little. I bought gas, some sodas, the long sought after hair dye, and rented a pair of movies. I didn't realize Milos Forman directed Valmont, another version of Dangerous Liaisons. It has a very young Fairuza Balk. It's enchanting, I think. Also picked up Shadow of the Vampire. Going to drown my weary head in films.

Tomorrow, perhaps, I will clean the house some more and barebecue things with Gene.

Comments

[ex-candles994.livejournal.com]

Stop becoming link happy!

Who do you think you are, me?!

:-)

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[tsarina.livejournal.com]

Perhaps I'm just picking up bad habits from my friends list. Now go watch Valmont!

[ex-candles994.livejournal.com]

I have! It's good! And Dangerous Liaisons too!

[neflhim.livejournal.com]

Ya know, the best thing about Shadow of the Vampire is that the reconstructed scenes from Nosferatu look perfect, just perfect. The ability to recreate the look Munro achieved is simply stellar.

Oh yea, some damn fine acting, too.

[dragonflychey.livejournal.com]

man, that sounds tough. maybe you will still find that file. i hope so. maybe you saved it as some weird name? it has to be there! ::hugs:: the bad days help me appreciate the good ones a lot more tho :)

I like a good vampire movie

[tsarina.livejournal.com]

I've been wanting to watch it for ages. Ever since I saw the interview with John Malkovich about how he was walking across the road from the set, and he waved at a bus full of school children, and only when they started shrieking did he remember he was in costume.

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[tsarina.livejournal.com]

I'm still searching my machine. It's a good thing I like it so much or I would be threatening it with tools at this point.

Here is to hoping today is a much better day. *raises iced tea*

Re: I like a good vampire movie

[alyosha.livejournal.com]

Wouldn't you mean Willem Dafoe? Because darling Malkovich plays Murnau and for Malky, very normal looking.

[ladypeculiar.livejournal.com]

This comp sucks, I must type very slow. I am in the airport.

I love you, and hope your day improves.

I offer you my tar-filled lungs in sacrifice.

Be well!!

damn, I know I shouldn't get up so early some days

[tsarina.livejournal.com]

Ack. Transposing people is even worse. My mind has obviously gone soft since I finished up at the University. *hides head in hands*

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[tsarina.livejournal.com]

Whee, airport computer love.
Our lungs should have a party and commiserate on their ungrateful owners.
I love you too! Be merry in Dublin!