we are made by our choices
Nov. 25th, 2002 04:44 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
threeplusfireI'm watching MTV2, and it only serves to make me feel stranger. Watching Eminem is like a crash in slow motion. In between all the crap, sometimes there is a song or a band with some quality that makes it worth watching. Like MC 900ft Jesus, and "If I Had a Brain." In truth, there's nothing enlightening about most television, Babylon 5 isn't on, and there's only so much CNN I can take these days before I start shrieking. Adding random things to my wishlist on Amazon is only entertaining for so long. Of course Yahoo Mail would tank right before I leave.
All this restless yearning will have to purge itself on the drive to Houston. I wonder how fast we can do it tonight. Melynda made it once in just over two hours. It's about 165 miles city to city, as the highways go. Less than that as the crow flies. Crows. There have been so many crows lately, that I can't help but see it as some sign. But then, I've always been looking for signs in things.
I'm making three pies at least. Chocolate Caramel Pie, Cherry Cheesecake Pie, and the Coffee-Cookie Ice Cream Pie. Enough sugar to send even a fully grown adult into a frenzy. I may bake some others, just for the hell of it. Melynda's mother is overjoyed to have someone who actually wants to cook around for Thanksgiving. I'm looking forward to this more than I should. I feel a little guilty for leaving town, as this is the first year my mother is all by herself in the house. My sister will probably go over there. Christmas I'm dreading. As selfish and awful it may be, I will pitch an unholy fit if she wants to stay at the house and bring Dimwit with her. If my father's not going to be there, I'm sure as hell not standing for that boy to be in my house.
My head aches. I've had 64 ounces of orange juice in less than 24 hours, and half a pack of cigarettes, and obviously not enough caffiene. I need you. The prospect of being without my laptop is distressing. I have chewed on my lips too much, and need to start using my lipgloss on a more regular basis. You're not here. I gave a soda to the moving man this afternoon, because he was hauling a washer & dryer set up to the second floor. My feet are cold in my boots. I am going now, and I'll come back. I can hear you, still.
All this restless yearning will have to purge itself on the drive to Houston. I wonder how fast we can do it tonight. Melynda made it once in just over two hours. It's about 165 miles city to city, as the highways go. Less than that as the crow flies. Crows. There have been so many crows lately, that I can't help but see it as some sign. But then, I've always been looking for signs in things.
I'm making three pies at least. Chocolate Caramel Pie, Cherry Cheesecake Pie, and the Coffee-Cookie Ice Cream Pie. Enough sugar to send even a fully grown adult into a frenzy. I may bake some others, just for the hell of it. Melynda's mother is overjoyed to have someone who actually wants to cook around for Thanksgiving. I'm looking forward to this more than I should. I feel a little guilty for leaving town, as this is the first year my mother is all by herself in the house. My sister will probably go over there. Christmas I'm dreading. As selfish and awful it may be, I will pitch an unholy fit if she wants to stay at the house and bring Dimwit with her. If my father's not going to be there, I'm sure as hell not standing for that boy to be in my house.
My head aches. I've had 64 ounces of orange juice in less than 24 hours, and half a pack of cigarettes, and obviously not enough caffiene. I need you. The prospect of being without my laptop is distressing. I have chewed on my lips too much, and need to start using my lipgloss on a more regular basis. You're not here. I gave a soda to the moving man this afternoon, because he was hauling a washer & dryer set up to the second floor. My feet are cold in my boots. I am going now, and I'll come back. I can hear you, still.
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Date: 2002-11-26 09:26 am (UTC)I'm not very good at staying in key, most of the time.