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threeplusfireThis is the first year I haven't felt the overwhelming urge to note this day. Can't decide if that comes from getting older, growing up, or that I'm getting over it. I don't know.
Standing on the shelf of paving stones laid behind the apartment. When the sky is flat grey like this I always feel like I'm going to fall upwards, off the earth. It's not like this when the sky is blue, because there is always some gradation to the color. This is flat, otherworldly. It reminds me too much of the original day.
Everything changed, and I didn't imagine it would come to this. Oddly enough, I feel so much more together now.
School starts again at the University today, and I wish I was there. Because it means so much, it was the only thing I ever wanted as a child. To grow up and go to college. Now I have to learn to want other things, in addition to that.
It's so quiet.
Standing on the shelf of paving stones laid behind the apartment. When the sky is flat grey like this I always feel like I'm going to fall upwards, off the earth. It's not like this when the sky is blue, because there is always some gradation to the color. This is flat, otherworldly. It reminds me too much of the original day.
Everything changed, and I didn't imagine it would come to this. Oddly enough, I feel so much more together now.
School starts again at the University today, and I wish I was there. Because it means so much, it was the only thing I ever wanted as a child. To grow up and go to college. Now I have to learn to want other things, in addition to that.
It's so quiet.