threeplusfire: (furious)
three ([personal profile] threeplusfire) wrote2003-03-10 05:26 pm

no coming back anymore

I'm not at work right now.
I had to call 911 today.
They've arrested my sister.

It's a story I've told five million times now, and I'm getting sick of it. But there was a four am fight at my mother's house, as my sister and Dimwit were there. It ended up out in the street, with the damned jack ass white trash neighbors and the cops and it was a mess. My mother told my sister to get out.

When she got off work she was afraid to go home alone so I went with her. Of course my sister was there. My mom told her told leave, now, and that she could no longer stay. My sister flipped. Screaming raging, getting up in my face and threatening to hit me, swearing at my mother, using every ugly thing she could say. Finally she pulled a knife and that's when I hit 911 on my cell. Because no fucking way was this going to go on. I was afraid for my mom, afraid for me, afriad my sister would do something stupid to hurt herself.

She got into a car chase, cause she took off and the police went chasing after her. I had to go get the car after they arrested her, and there were two county cars and a state trooper. My sister was in handcuffs. They've taken her to lock up and they're going to send her to the State Hospital for a psych exam to see if she's suicidal or whatever.

So now I'm just trying to take care of my mother. Cate, the most wonderful woman alive, came here to help and talk with my mother, and made her see that we have to stop enabling my sister now. No more. She's not coming back. She never registered the car, so the title is still in my mother's name. I'm taking the car down to my father tomorrow, and we're selling it so I can use the money to buy my own truck.

I'm going to stay there tonight, but I'll come back around midnight to check my email. I should go to work tomorrow and then back to the apartment for my LumosNox agenda.

But right now all I want to do is scream. Fuck you fuck you fuck you. I won't let you do anything else to my family. Fuck you fuck you. Damn it. How the hell can you be such a monster? You don't fucking care about anyone but yourself and I hate you for it.

Fuck you fuck you fuck you fuck you fuck you.

Of all the fucking things I never wanted to have to do, you made me do it today.

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[identity profile] tsarina.livejournal.com 2003-03-10 03:44 pm (UTC)(link)
It's the simple things in the world I'm so damned grateful for right now. Thank you.

(And I've really loved your new icons. They make me smile.)

[identity profile] delchi.livejournal.com 2003-03-10 03:40 pm (UTC)(link)
I'm too far away to do any pratical good, but if you feel the need to summon the royal guard, I'll be there.

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[identity profile] tsarina.livejournal.com 2003-03-10 03:44 pm (UTC)(link)
Thank you good sir. Dost thou know the location of a nice deserted island where we might ship the wayward royal sibling?

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[identity profile] tsarina.livejournal.com 2003-03-10 03:56 pm (UTC)(link)
That sounds like a good idea. That, or the Gobi Desert.

[identity profile] neflhim.livejournal.com 2003-03-10 04:04 pm (UTC)(link)
I wish there was something I could do. I'm sorry this is happening to you and your Mom.

Words suck sometimes, neh?

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[identity profile] tsarina.livejournal.com 2003-03-10 04:09 pm (UTC)(link)
Yeah, sometimes you just don't know what to say or do. It's weird.

Call your parents and tell them you're not a drug using psycho and that you love them. That's probably the best thing anyone can do at the moment.

[identity profile] coyotegoth.livejournal.com 2003-03-10 04:07 pm (UTC)(link)
Shite, that's hard. I'm sorry you're going through this, and I hope it resolves itself quickly.p

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[identity profile] tsarina.livejournal.com 2003-03-10 04:10 pm (UTC)(link)
Me too. I can only hope they keep her in jail long enough for me to get rid of all her stuff and make sure she can't ever come back to the house.

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[identity profile] tsarina.livejournal.com 2003-03-10 09:46 pm (UTC)(link)
Yeah, we're looking into all our options. What a mess. How often does one have to think about getting a protective order against a family member? It's just insane.

[identity profile] newbabel.livejournal.com 2003-03-10 04:46 pm (UTC)(link)
I'm here, dear. In whatever capacity you may need a friend, I implore you to call on me. I stand at the ready.

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[identity profile] tsarina.livejournal.com 2003-03-10 08:26 pm (UTC)(link)
Heh, perhaps you and Delchi can be Dementors and haul my sister off to Azkaban.

[identity profile] newbabel.livejournal.com 2003-03-10 08:32 pm (UTC)(link)
You got it! :-)

[identity profile] delchi.livejournal.com 2003-03-11 03:46 am (UTC)(link)
Have cloak, will travel.

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[identity profile] tsarina.livejournal.com 2003-03-11 11:14 am (UTC)(link)
Fabulous. I'll sign the papers to have her carted off right away.

(Right now I'm just hoping no one springs her.)

[identity profile] water-damage.livejournal.com 2003-03-10 04:53 pm (UTC)(link)
maybe she can get some real help now.

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[identity profile] tsarina.livejournal.com 2003-03-10 08:18 pm (UTC)(link)
God I hope so.

[identity profile] siria.livejournal.com 2003-03-10 04:54 pm (UTC)(link)
*hug hug* I hope things will get better for you very soon, Amanda.

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[identity profile] tsarina.livejournal.com 2003-03-10 08:23 pm (UTC)(link)
Thank you muchly.

[identity profile] alainn-sorcha.livejournal.com 2003-03-10 05:24 pm (UTC)(link)
*hugs* Now maybe she'll get some help and things will get better. *hugs*

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[identity profile] tsarina.livejournal.com 2003-03-10 08:22 pm (UTC)(link)
I do hope so. It would be the best thing.

[identity profile] silentjack.livejournal.com 2003-03-10 06:29 pm (UTC)(link)
Jesus.... I hope you and your mom are ok and pull through this. I'm sending a bearhug, and if you need anything, please do not hesitate to ask.

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[identity profile] tsarina.livejournal.com 2003-03-10 08:23 pm (UTC)(link)
Thank you. My mom is calming down, and I just have a headache from hell.

[identity profile] roadnotes.livejournal.com 2003-03-10 08:52 pm (UTC)(link)
Dear gods. I wish that I wasn't so far away.

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[identity profile] tsarina.livejournal.com 2003-03-10 09:00 pm (UTC)(link)
I wish that I wasn't so far away too. Cause otherwise I would have run off to the piano bar with y'all. I can't wait to see you again.

[identity profile] schmidtybooger.livejournal.com 2003-03-10 09:45 pm (UTC)(link)
You're in my thoughts, honey. Soon enough you will be in the City and can torment Reive with tales of baby vultures. Things will look brighter then.

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[identity profile] tsarina.livejournal.com 2003-03-10 10:01 pm (UTC)(link)
Yes. Soon I will be in the magic City in the North, and I will tell everyone about the vultures. Heh. Thank heavens for friends.

[identity profile] dragonflychey.livejournal.com 2003-03-10 09:51 pm (UTC)(link)
man, i'm sorry. i hope you're doing better now. hang in there. *hugs*

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[identity profile] tsarina.livejournal.com 2003-03-10 10:02 pm (UTC)(link)
Yes, I'm a bit more calm now. Hopefully the headache will go down after liberal applications of food and sleep.

Thank you.

[identity profile] maldeluxx.livejournal.com 2003-03-10 11:33 pm (UTC)(link)
*sigh* I hope it gets better... no, it WILL get better. Stay strong. *hugs*

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[identity profile] tsarina.livejournal.com 2003-03-10 11:48 pm (UTC)(link)
Thank you. Day by day, and all that.

Wonderful icon, btw. It made me smile.
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[identity profile] tsarina.livejournal.com 2003-03-11 11:24 am (UTC)(link)
It's quite alright. Everything's been so crazy.

Thank you for your thoughts and prayers, that means a lot to me. Go hug Dan, and call your parents and tell them you love them and they are so lucky to have such a wonderful daughter.

[identity profile] fauxfille.livejournal.com 2003-03-11 10:51 am (UTC)(link)
I'm sorry. That must have been difficult...but, she will probably get more help now and you did the right thing. If anyone (family included) threatens to hurt you, you should always call for help.

Best wishes to you and your family. I know it isn't easy.

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[identity profile] tsarina.livejournal.com 2003-03-11 11:20 am (UTC)(link)
I'm hoping that she does. It's either going to get better, or get a whole lot worse before it does.

Thank you.

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[identity profile] fauxfille.livejournal.com 2003-03-11 12:01 pm (UTC)(link)
well, just so you know, many people have gone through the experience you described with a family member. maybe not in the exact way, but due to other circumstances that were threatening.

remember to be safe and think well of yourself. your sister will have more people involved in her care, besides her family.

my scratchy cat sends you some well wishes, too. meow!